My mom. My hero.

My mom is amazing.  Not only is she suffering watching her grandchild go through all of this pain, but she suffers knowing how much I am hurting.  Still, she remains positive, she takes my calls at all hours of the day and she is the best listener in the world.  She never wavers.  She is beautiful, loving, generous, gentle and tireless.  I want to be just like her.  I don't know how she does it and I never did.

Today we had a nice quiet day at Grandma's house, and as always, my mom took care of all of us.  Feeding us delicious meals all day, watching out for great Granny (her own mother, 90, who lives with her), cleaning up after us and bending over backwards to keep Ty smiling.  My Dad is great, too.  He constantly tries to keep Ty and Gavin entertained.  It was a good day.  Lou and I took Gavin and Ty for a long walk around the neighborhood I grew up in and it was just nice and easygoing.

There has been an underlying sadness lurking around me all weekend.  Lou and I have been talking a lot about how different our lives are and how hard it is to watch Ty going through this pain and how hard it is because he is often so unhappy.  We worry about Gavin.  We worry about what is going to happen to all of us.  Despite all of this, spending this weekend in the home I grew up in with my Mom doting on me somehow makes everything feel better.  THANKS, MOM.  I LOVE YOU.   Next year I will be doting on you!

Happy Mother's Day to all of you amazing Mom's out there.  And you are all amazing.  For many of you, I know it's your love for your own children and grandchildren that have brought you so close to us and to Ty.  Hope this weekend was a great one for all of you. 


That's baby Ty on his first Christmas.  XOXOXO!

Comments

  1. TraceyMay 8, 2011 at 9:38 PM

    He still looks as handsome and precious as he did on that christmas day. You are so lucky to have your mom, as she sounds like a great role model. Don't kid yourself. You are the same. You are an amazing mother that will do anything and everything for your family. Anything. Even fight cancer. Glad you had a nice mother's day. You are never far from my thoughts, especially on days like today. I hugged my kids extra hard today because of you and Ty. Hugs and kisses to you all.

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  2. Bonesteel6May 8, 2011 at 9:47 PM

    Cindy,

    I hope you had the most blessed Mother's Day!!! Even though I don't personally know you or your family, everyone following your blog loves you and your family tremendously. I, like so many others check your blog several times a day for your updates. We all send out many prayers every day for this nightmare of your family's to be over soon and for Ty to be a healthy, happy little boy. Ty is such an amazing little man and he has been such an inspiration to so many people. God bless you all. I hope your Mother's day was filled with joy!

    Love,
    The Bonesteel Family
    Indianapolis, IN

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  3. MariaMay 9, 2011 at 2:48 AM

    Cindy, You are an amazing mom, and I am sure everyone who reads this would agree the way you describe your mom is how we all see you. Sounds like you were able to enjoy this Mother's Day despite the stress that Ty's illness is taking on your family.

    Continued thoughts and prayers are coming to you from IL (actually CA tonight!)

    Xoxoxo,
    Maria

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  4. ChristinaMay 9, 2011 at 5:34 AM

    Cindy,

    You ARE beautiful,loving,gentle, generous and tireless- You are amazing. As you have received a gift from your mom, you are passing on the gift to Ty. You are all so fortunate to have such love, togetherness and strength during this time.

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  5. AnonymousMay 9, 2011 at 11:35 AM

    Cindy.

    I thought about you so many times yesterday...how brave and corageous you have been these past few months. How hundreds of people have drawn on that strength and recycled it. You and your family continue to amaze me. I loved seeing you on Friday for some "human" and even having a couple of laughs about you know who! You may have seen this already, but in light of the latest results, I thought it was worth a share...since its all so true.
    Cancer is so limited...
    It cannot cripple love.
    It cannot shatter hope.
    It cannot corrode faith.
    It cannot eat away peace.
    It cannot destroy confidence.
    It cannot kill friendship.
    It cannot shut out memories.
    It cannot silence courage.
    It cannot reduce eternal life.
    It cannot quench the Spirit.

    So much love,
    Juliet

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  6. Colleen RosenMay 9, 2011 at 12:30 PM

    298,075 Total Pageviews?? RU serious???

    Cindy you are exactly like your mom. Even your pink pants ;)

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  7. AnonymousMay 9, 2011 at 9:48 PM

    Cindy:
    As so many I am no different. I thought of you all day on Sunday and cried for you. I do not even feel deserving to have the most amazing title God has ever name- Mom - next to you. You live up to everything a Mom is, believed to be and was designed to me. I do not deserve the title, but you, you deserve the title. I wish I could give you the answer as to why God chose Ty and why God felt you and Lou to walk this journey. I wish I could lift you all out of this journey for just a little while but the selfish part of me is thankful I do not walk your journey and I am truly ashamed. I know I could never be the kind of Mom you are. I found myself crying in church on Sunday as my prayer was all about Ty. As my two babies climbed on my lap I buried my head in thier scent and left the tears roll. I hope those tears reach God and deliver Ty well. Never doubt for a minute you are anything less than utterly amazing. You are special and truly a hand picked angel - you simply do no know it. Sorry this is so long - you simply have no idea how precious you are which makes you even more. God bless.

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