My mom is amazing. Not only is she suffering watching her grandchild go through all of this pain, but she suffers knowing how much I am hurting. Still, she remains positive, she takes my calls at all hours of the day and she is the best listener in the world. She never wavers. She is beautiful, loving, generous, gentle and tireless. I want to be just like her. I don't know how she does it and I never did.
Today we had a nice quiet day at Grandma's house, and as always, my mom took care of all of us. Feeding us delicious meals all day, watching out for great Granny (her own mother, 90, who lives with her), cleaning up after us and bending over backwards to keep Ty smiling. My Dad is great, too. He constantly tries to keep Ty and Gavin entertained. It was a good day. Lou and I took Gavin and Ty for a long walk around the neighborhood I grew up in and it was just nice and easygoing.
There has been an underlying sadness lurking around me all weekend. Lou and I have been talking a lot about how different our lives are and how hard it is to watch Ty going through this pain and how hard it is because he is often so unhappy. We worry about Gavin. We worry about what is going to happen to all of us. Despite all of this, spending this weekend in the home I grew up in with my Mom doting on me somehow makes everything feel better. THANKS, MOM. I LOVE YOU. Next year I will be doting on you!
Happy Mother's Day to all of you amazing Mom's out there. And you are all amazing. For many of you, I know it's your love for your own children and grandchildren that have brought you so close to us and to Ty. Hope this weekend was a great one for all of you.
That's baby Ty on his first Christmas. XOXOXO!