Thursday, April 14, 2011

I am a lioness

Cancer picked the wrong family to f*ck with.  Doesn't cancer know that I will protect my baby cub with raw, fierce and violent determination?  I will never give up hope, I will never lose faith and I will never stop fighting for the love of my life.  Even after Ty is victorious, I will continue to fight ferociously for the rest of my life.  My mind will forever be consumed with the unfairness of this disgusting illness and I will never stop reading, researching and supporting efforts to find a cure to cancer in any way that I can.   F*ck you, cancer!  I HATE YOUR GUTS!  I want to reach into my baby's body, pull out his tumor and mutilate it using every type of violent, obscure device I can think of. 

Maybe cancer had its eye on me for a while.  Thought I was some silly blonde girl who smiled too easily to hide a slightly frazzled life.  A girl who got overwhelmed easily trying to balance life, work and two babies on coffee alone.  A girl who was forgetful and weak.  An easy target.  How wrong you were, Cancer.  That baby is part of me… the best part… and I have never been stronger.  Since the second he was born there has been a fire burning in my heart.  You mess with him, you mess with me and I will never waver.  Cancer has tried to pull every dirty trick in the book during this fight.  CHEATER!  You will not win.  You will die. 

When Ty cries out in pain from this putrid, evil disease, I often snuggle him and caress him and whisper to him that "it's okay."  It's a natural thing to say, but every single time I say that Ty gets so angry and says, "no, it's not okay!" and he's totally right.  I tell him he's right.  This is NOT okay.  Cancer is not okay. 

As you all know, Super Ty likes all superheroes -- including the Hulk -- and he is familiar with the phrase, "don't make me angry… you wouldn't like me when I'm angry."  This morning I was encouraging him to embrace that mantra and to let the cancer make him angry.  Let's finish this!


We are done with radiation treatment on Wednesday morning.  It's been difficult, but we are almost there and the radiation is working.  We will take a break through Easter weekend and then back to the hospital for 7 - 10 days to deal with his infected shunt before we can begin chemo again.  I will keep you posted.  Thank you for your support. 

18 comments:

  1. Say it again Cindy! You are the lioness and nobody messes with you baby cub! Your strength and Ty's desire to beat that nasty, ugly disease will prevail!

    Every morning I wake up and pray to God that he gives you all the strength to conquer this disease... My 3 yr old Ayden asks for Ty everyday he asks me if he's getting bedda and I tell him Ty is trying and he will get bedda!

    Keep up the good work! Praying that Ty has a painfree Easter weekend.

    Love-

    Zoraida

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  2. Keep strong, Cindy....because strong, you definitely are!! Your family, and especially Ty, amaze me daily w/ your strength.

    Things are looking up and I am SOOO happy!

    Hope y'all have a great weekend!

    Jan
    Georgia

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  3. A beautiful little cub that just can’t wait to be king :O)

    Not too excited about the shunt surgery... BUT that is a part of it and it too will pass :O)

    IT IS OKAY TY everything is okay, it is okay to be mad, it is okay to not understand, it is okay to be sad, it is okay to be scared, it is okay to be happy, it is okay to cry, it is okay to laugh, it is okay to rejoice in every step forward and work through every step back, it is all okay. Just understand that you are loved, protected by family, doctors, friends, strangers, angels, and a higher power that is beside you at all times. It is not the okay that any of us want or want to hear right now but, honey you are loved and protected and you WILL BE OKAY!!!

    I think I speak for everyone, we love you so much Ty and everyone is in your corner, on your team and here for you. We all might be here in different ways and in different capacities but do not doubt that WE ARE HERE!
    Love you all,

    Mary E. King and the rest of the King family
    GA

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  4. You go girl, make that horrible cancer sorry for messing with your little angel!!!

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  5. Stay strong!!! F- Cancer is right!

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  6. Kick butt... scream it away.... fight fight fight and never give up. You will be the winner in the end and you will have a healthy beautiful son as the proof. God hears us, even when we are angry. You go mama!

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  7. Go Mama lion! We hear your ROAR!
    Keep it up! We're with you and saying prayers.
    Love,
    The Ferranti's

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  8. Atta girl........RAAAAAAAAAAAWWWWWWRRRRRRR!!

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  9. You have to start him Jarrow OptiMSM, it will neutralize the cancer toxins and take away his pain as you work up the dosage. Start slow like 500mg -1000mg per day and work your way up as high as 3 tablespoons per day. There is no toxicity, just beginning detox symptoms. They were pretty severe in my daughter at the beginning because so much alcohol was built up in her system from the tumors. There is a possibility of a cure with it alone, especially along with high vitamin D and calcium. Anyway, here is the full protocol that my daughter is on and is working! http://nourishingachildwithcancer.blogspot.com/2011/04/laylas-tumor-busting-protocol.html

    Feel free to friend on Facebook too.
    Weldon Williford

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  10. What a WONDERFUL strong post! You are a Tiger! A Very Strong Mother, Ty is a very lucky little boy, and I wish him the best of health. Praying that he will get well soon and that Horrible Cancer can be defeated, for Everyone. I have 2 grandsons, our Love for our children and grandchildren is Glorious! Sending Love and prayers, from Mary in Texas

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  11. GREAT POST! Keep strong mama! We are all in your corner! Beat cancer up Ty!

    We are praying for you, Ty and the rest of your family every night!

    XO

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  12. All right!
    That is the SPIRIT, a warrior, a survivor, a fighter, our HEROES!
    We love you all, and WE BELIEVE TY will show us the MIRACLE of his health.
    Flip flops will come your way!
    This Easter we will share God's miracle of life with Ty!

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  13. you are totally MAGNIFICENT , AND I AGREE with each word you wrote !
    wonderful mother, do not waiver.......
    prayers for all of you
    keep it up !!

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  14. I am hugging you to pieces and holding up your arm in soon to be victory. Ty is right, it is not okay but somehow cancer's butt is getting kicked and it is going to be kicked to hell and back again. One day I am going to meet you and hug the heck out of you.

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  15. I think this is one of my favorite posts of yours yet. I love the image of you as the strong mama lioness. As a mother, I can definitely relate to that feeling of, "you mess with my kids, you're messing with me."

    Cancer is definitely messing with the wrong family here. Keep fighting!

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  16. Cindy, you continue to amaze me! You are one of the kindness, most patient & loving people I have ever met and to see your lioness comes out makes me so proud! Ty is a fighter surrounded by warriors who also fight for him! We will not stop until he is all bedda! And you are so right cancer has definitely chosen the wrong family to f*ck with! I love you! God bless Ty!

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  17. you are so strong. I am amazed by you and your family.

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  18. That's right cancer! You chose the wrong person to F*** with!!!!!!!!

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