You know what I love? I love that I see the world with my eyes open. I love that I imagine, and truly believe, that every falling leaf is channeling Ty's free spirit as it softly dances in the wind. I love that when a sunbeam lays across my face unexpectedly, I feel like it is a warm kiss from heaven. I love that when the gentle wind blows, I turn to face it and accept my hugs. I love that Ty gave Daddy a ladybug this morning, when he was already having a very bad day. I love that Lou doesn't look at me like I'm crazy anymore,* because it is too magical not to believe.
*just to clarify, Lou knows I'm all sorts of crazy, just not when it comes to Ty's ladybugs.
It goes without saying that I wish I was living my life with the blinders on, as long as Ty was with me, but I had no choice in that matter and I am at least grateful for how he has changed me. He has changed a lot of people in so many ways.
Today I spent a lot of time working on promotional materials for the Muddy Puddles Project 2014 - and I am so excited for what we hope to accomplish next year. Thank God I have the foundation to keep me pushing forward. I can't help but believe that we are going to continue this landslide of fundraising, enabling us to make a difference.
Have you seen this video of Gabriella Miller? Can she be any more lovable? She was put on hospice care just days ago, after making this video for the Truth 365 awareness campaign (the clip below is actually her adorable outtakes). I can't tell you how defeated I felt learning the news and then watching her incredible personality shine through knowing what I knew. I have to keep telling myself that it isn't going to happen overnight, but it will happen. It will get better for these kids. I just get so angry knowing how many beautiful children will have to die before those changes come to fruition.
Today Gavin asked me "when am I going to heaven," and "can I share my carrot muffin with Ty in heaven?" and "does Ty even eat in heaven?" I love it when he talks about Ty. So very much.
I uploaded some recent pictures of Gavin, doing your typical Fall duties - like the quintessential trip to the local orchard for some apple picking, enjoying an episode of Franklin with the class pet (named Franklin), and of course, pretend slashing an Avengers punching bag with your wolverine claws while sporting a Rudolf nose. He cracks me up :) I thank God for him every day.
Good night. As always, thanks so much for your continued love and support.