Tuesday, October 23, 2012

Gold Lights, Ladybugs and Signs in the Sky

Yesterday was the first time Lou and I really emerged from our house of sadness, and I am so happy we did.  First we attended a local dedication to Ty at Pawling's "Socktoberfest" soccer tournament, where Ty received a gold jersey from the soccer club and his number - number one - will forever be "retired" just for him.

Later that day we met up with over a hundred people in Poughkeepsie for a candle lighting ceremony.  I don't know how she pulled it off, but in less than a week's time Lou's cousin Renee arranged for the Mid-Hudson Bridge to be lit in gold lights to spread awareness for pediatric cancer in honor of Ty.  It couldn't have been a more beautiful night, and I felt Ty everywhere.  Thank you so much for all of you who came out to light a candle for Ty, and thank you so much to Julia who sang so beautifully - it was wonderful and my whole family was so touched by the tribute.  Ty's amazing nurse from MSKCC, Sue, travelled so far to see us and she was my greatest surprise (thank you).  A newsclip from the event is posted on YouTube here

 
 
I had to give Gavin a bath tonight, and the tub in his bathroom is clogged since a spiderman head escaped down the drain.  I gave him a bath in my tub, and it was so hard at first.  I removed Ty's bath chair that has been there for months, knowing we won't ever need it again.  The same chair we bathed him in on Wednesday.  When Gavin saw that he was going to be allowed in my tub, he immediately opened my cabinet and pulled out the bath toy that Ty loved... it is a Hot Wheels set with ramps and cars that change colors.  Gavin was there the last time Ty ever had that toy in the tub with him just weeks ago (we never let Ty feel like he couldn't play with his toys - I would hold his hand and the cars and make pretend he was doing it himself).  I was happy that he remembered and wanted to play with it, but it was very hard to resist pulling it away and screaming "No, that's TY'S TOY" just because my heart is so broken.  It hurts Lou and I to watch Gavin playing with all of Ty's toys happily and without any hesitation. 

During the bath, I was lost in silence while Gavin played.  For days the only memories of Ty that consumed my mind were his last breaths, his cold body in my bed and the vision of the door closing after his casket was rolled into the crematorium.  I try to keep so busy with conversation and cleaning around the house just to avoid these thoughts.  Nighttime is the worst.  I mention this because I finally experienced a beautiful moment while Gavin was in the bath tonight.  I snapped out of my haze when I imagined Ty's laughter.  Then I saw him in the tub next to Gavin.  I imagined him watching his brother and telling me that Gaga is a "woon-a-tick" (lunatic).  He was sitting up independently, lifting his arms and enjoying a bath like a healthy, able-bodied five-year-old.  When I pulled the plug to drain the tub, I heard Ty's voice cry "Ga-GAAAAA!" when Gavin tried to sneak and put it back in (he was always telling on his little brother).  I hadn't been able to hear his voice for days and I was so afraid it wouldn't come back to me.  Thank you so much, Ty, for coming back to me tonight.  I loved seeing you at bathtime. 

Punk Rock Ty, October 13th, post-bath

The first thing I did after we returned home without Ty on Thursday was open the sliding doors to my backyard because it was so beautiful outside.  I was greeted by hundreds of ladybugs on the doors, the windows, even inside my house.  This has happened before, and every time it has been when something significant with Ty happened (i.e. when we returned home from the hospital after his craniotomy and after he suffered paralysis overnight as a result of post-radiation effect).  Ladybugs are said to symbolize good luck, and much more.  I carried a "lucky lady bug" in my pocket that was gifted to Ty over a year ago and another one always sat on the shelf above his bed.  I googled it to find that there are so many people who have posted about instances where ladybugs appear after a loved one dies.

When I was about seven, my cousin died suddenly.  She was only eight or nine years old herself.  My mother always comforted me with a story about when her mommy and daddy came home after her funeral, my little cousin's backyard was filled with ladybugs.  They were all over the window screens in her kitchen and all over her play set.  I realize that ladybugs have a short life cycle and that it is not uncommon to experience sudden infestations, but I believe that the timing of these occurrences are of a very spiritual nature.  Some of the things I've read that made me smile include:
  • Because the life of the adult ladybug is short, it teaches us how to release worries and enjoy our lives to the fullest.  When a ladybug appears in our life it is telling us to "let go and let God."
  • The name lady bug finds its origins in the middle ages when this beetle was dedicated to the Virgin Mary and called the "beetle of our lady" and the insect is said to hold a link to mothers. 
  • Ladybugs are very visible, unlike most insects that are camouflaged from predators.  In spite of the ladybug's size, it appears to be fearless. 
  • Seen often as a messenger of promise, the ladybug reconnects us with the joy of living.
  • Ladybugs teach us how to restore our trust and faith in the eternal life of one's spirit.

The sky has been filled with messages from Ty as well.  On the night he died, I was sent the following two photos from neighbors who were on their way to a prayer vigil in his honor.  I have also had a number of photos and people writing to tell me they are seeing angel wings in the sky. 

This cloud was over our house just after Ty passed away and reminds us of a hawk, flying free

Over the church, a rainbow appeared through a hole in the clouds that same evening

The greatest message in the sky will be taking place tomorrow.  Ty's "Aunt Mary" from the Guardian Brain Foundation has arranged for an airsign in the sky over Pawling at 2PM.  This will be such an incredible gift.  The plane will be flying right over our house tomorrow and all over town in his honor.  Mary, you have never stopped giving our family beautiful memories.  Thank you.  I can't wait to share pictures!

193 comments:

  1. God bless you and your family! You are a wonderful inspiration to so many people! Take comfort in that fact that Ty is free and watching over you! He was an angel on earth and now in Heaven!

    Lisa

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  2. thankyou for sharing all this. What beautiful people you have around you. You are really blessed. My family continues to pray for you. I know that Ty is always around you and I do belive he was right there in that tub with Gavin. God Bless you Campbell family we all love you and send Gods comfort....

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  3. The day he died I must have seen four or five rainbows around town . I knew it meant something but not until later. It was him. He is free and happy and perfect and beautiful like a rainbow. Sweet boy. We love you!

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  4. You are all such a true inspiration. I always say I'm alive because if my children and I'm lucky to have them, but Ty and Gavin are the luckiest kids by far. Lou and you are truly amazing people and because you are, Ty will forever be with you all day and night watching over you.

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  5. God Love and Keep You Cindy..My Heart is broken for You and Lou.


    ~Michelle Hughes, North Ga.

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  6. Ty lives on in Gavin too. I have two little boys and their similarities amaze me so much. The shape of their heads, the way they wrinkle their noses, the way they laugh at silly things, the way they pretend to fight with monsters and dinosaurs.

    Thank you so much for your posts, Cindy. They help us deal with missing Ty too. At our house we talk about Ty a lot - he means so much to so many people. We'd like to keep Ty and your family in our heart.

    Even though you are all a world away from us geographically, Ty is our inspiration. We have decided to start our own fund to help children facing similar difficulties and we plan to keep this up for the rest of our lives.

    Just as you say, SuperTy will continue to do great things.

    Lots of love, Judy

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  7. Praying for strength and comfort! Much love!
    Marcia,CA

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  8. Wow! Those pictures are truly amazing!! Ty will touch us all in awesome ways. :)

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  9. Keep on believing.. :)

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  10. My cousin has been following your blog since the beginning. Shr just told me about ty 2weeks ago and i spent 2 whole days, started from the beginning, to catch up. I read the post about the day ty passed to my husband while we were on a little road trip and we were both in tears i couldn't even finish it. We have 2 children also. 9 year old little girl and a little boy who is only a couple months older than ty. today it rained all day. me and my son went to the grocery store and as we're walking into the store of course he goes to jump into a puddle. I was just about to tell him no and as I thought about it with his brand new 100 dollar shoes on I let him go ahead and jump in the puddles. as he smiled at me the first thing that went through my head was tY. you made me realize not to sweat the small stuff. go ahead and let them jump in those puddles. I cannot even imagine the pain that you and lou are going through. your family is in my prayers always. Love always the kinsella family

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  11. My heart breaks while I feel him everywhere. Thankyou for sharing your story. The journey continues.
    Love Emily,
    Hoboken

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  12. Never have I ever heard such a beautiful love story. I pray every night for strength for you god bless your family.

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  13. I just can't believe how beautiful that photo is of the hawk... or is it?

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  14. It must be hard to watch Gavin playing with tys toys .. but think of it this way .. Ty is sitting there most likely guiding his hands .. holding his hands && playing with the same toy :)


    a million && one lady bugs have also filled my house .. Windows && screen door .. wht does this mean in my case ??

    is it that Ty && Ronan, Tay && ava are trying to help me ?? Giving me a million && one ideas at once to help this monster be known ??

    I hope so ..
    because none of those beautiful babies have left my mind && I often find myself crying just by looking at my own kids play in the dirt , leaves && releasing those beautiful lady bugs filling our house .

    I discovered today that Aiden is going to be a sensitive sentimental little boy ..
    he started crying today because he thought he hurt a lady bug, so he ripped a little piece of bandaid off && "fixeded " it as he says ..

    oh how I wish u could enjoy Ty ..
    I wish u could watch him grow ..

    but in ur mind, && heart .. i think u kno that u will .. he's never going to leave ur side .. he will never leave lous side .. && now, he will be able to enjoy school .. because hell be by his brothers side .. protecting && watching over him


    much love && prayers from Centerville tn

    Aiden ((3)) Jr ((1)) && Sofii.

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  15. Cindy I always re read your posts because they are so beautiful.. My phone is burning up to the touch!!

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  16. Cindy, I am a military girl...and we lost a dear friend in Afghanistan in 2009. His mother is ALWAYS seeing ladybugs now, like she never did before. I believe! I'm so crushed over the loss of your little boy. I cry on my way to and from work (reflection time) and say to myself, "This wasn't supposed to happen!" I have a little boy too, and I can only imagine your pain. I fully understand wanting to burn with Ty's body...I sobbed when I read that. Thank you so much for sharing your life, it has genuinely changed my life. I am desperate to help find a cure, and I loathe cancer :(

    *hugs* from Colorado ~ Vanessa

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  17. Cindy thank you very much for writing abo Gavin. I wanted to know more about it n how he was doing. Thank you for posting and sharing ur experiences with us. _<3

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  18. I was wondering if anyone has found any buttons or blinkies for their blogs that support pediatric cancer? I would love to put one on my blog for Ty.
    And thank you for posting about Gavin. I have been praying for him and his understanding of what is going on.
    You will always be in my prayers.

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  19. ty veille sur vous, lou et gavin maintenant, et vous verrez que vous allez le voir souvent dans des moments que vous ne vous y attendrez pas. votre adorable ange sera toujours a vos cotes. cela doit le faire bien sourir de voir gavin jouer avec ces jouets, il etait tellement bon, genereux avec tout le monde, en particulier avec sa maman son papa et "gaga". votre coeur saigne a l'idee que gavin joue avec ce qui etait a ty, c'est normal, ty est encore tellement present autour de vous, en vous...il le restera toujours. vous etes une femme exceptionnelle, vous etes un exemple pour tout les parents du monde... je vais continuer de prier pour vous lou gavin et bien sur tyler. je vous aime tant, vous avez changer ma vie, je suis plus conciliante avec mes enfants (marine 17ans et matteo 6 ans) je les embrasse et serre dans mes bras sans arret au court de la journee, ils se demande ce qu'il se passe d'ailleurs, alors je leur parle de vous de votre combat et de super ty, je leur lit des pages de votre blog,(en pleurant la plupart du temps tellement je suis emue). i wub you <3

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  20. I can't imagine the pain that you're feeling. I pray everyday for peace for you and your family. Thank you for sharing your super hero with us. He has touched my life in such a profound way! I will do whatever I can to support finding a cure for pediatric cancer.

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  21. I have to thank you again for sharing Ty with us. I cry every day for you, your love for Ty is amazing. Every morning the first thing I do is read your blog. Yesterday my son was sent home from school sick. I spent the whole afternoon just hugging him (where before I would have put him on the couch and cleaned or something) you have reminded us to cherish every moment.

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  22. God Bless you Cindy, Lou and Gavin.
    I still believe too, and pray for all of you!!

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  23. Your grace astounds me. Every day I think of you, Lou, and Gavin. My boys have started to ask to light Ty's candle on the porch every day now, and of course, I ablige them. They understand the meaning of the candle, despite their ages (3 & 5).. They listen every night in hopes of hearing the church bells again like we did the night of the prayer chain. I explain to them that Ty already got his wings, so we may not hear the bells at candle time again. I don't know if any of this is making sense to you.... but just know that Ty is always in our thoughts and hearts.

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  24. Ty is with you all the time I'm sure of it.
    Thank you Cindy for keeping on writing about all the amazing things Ty and your family are doing.
    I will have Ty in my heart forever
    Hanna NY

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  25. Wow, I am happy that you had an encouraging day! About the ladybugs...I too feel a special connection when they 'Find me

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    1. ...sorry bout that, didn't finish...
      'Find me'...the timing is ALWAYS perfect...usually a time when I need to tell myself, 'let go, and let God'...I have convinced myself that when one visits me, it is God saying, 'I am here, and I know what you are going through'

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  26. That picture of the hawk cloud -

    "And He will raise you up on eagle's wings,
    Bear you on the breath of God,
    Make you to shine like the sun,
    And hold you, hold you in the palm
    Of His hand."

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  27. When I lost my fiance to cancer I was told that finding a dime meant he was thinking of me. I found or just spotted dimes dimes at my lowest times. I definitely believe in signs if you are open enough to see them. Ty is all around you, Lou and Gavin and I'm sure he will let you see him again. Love to you and your family.

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    1. It happens to me all the time
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  28. Dearest Cindy,

    Thank you for sharing this very difficult time so honestly. I cannot imagine how hard it is for you and Lou to be torn between grieving and being present for Gaving - it is a struggle no parent should face. I sent you a poem - the only words that I ever felt conveyed that stomach turning, heart stopping grief accurately. Maybe it seems strange that another's grief should be comforting, but, perhaps the darkest part of grief is how deeply lonely it can be. You are never alone, Cindy. And when you and Lou are ready, there's a beautiful little boy waiting to hold your hand and guide you back to joy.

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  29. I can't stop reading your blog. Thank you for sharing your story with the world...you have a special gift for writing...and for being an amazing mom...what an inspiration you are. May God fill your heart with peace and joy at this tragic time. God bless you

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  30. Cindy,
    It is nice that you are still writing to us. I started this journey with you a back in the beginning and I know it is not over. You have become part of my life and look forward to reading about your day. I am glad you were able to get out of the house. Just the fresh air should help. I pray for God to give you the strength to be the great mom that you are to Galvin and for you and Lou to find some peace
    Michelle
    XOXO

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  31. I'm sure Ty was right there in the tub with Gavin, playing along! I can't imagine how hard it is watching him play with his special toys...but how wonderful at the same time, that his toys continue to bring joy to his little brother. I bet Ty's toys are a great way for Gavin to feel connected to his brother. I love that your eyes are so open to signs that Ty is all around you, for he truly is.

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  32. I am so glad to hear Ty was with his brother in the tub last night. I know it is hard, but those toys link him to Gavin forever and will remind him of his brother. You may even keep some toys for one day when Gavin has children and you pass them onto your grandchildren. Sounds silly, but they will forever link them together. I have a doll from my 1 st daughter, that I had lost, and I passed it on to my only other daughter. Yes, it was meant for my Morganna, but Cate knows and loves it all the more

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  33. Prayers and love to all the Campbells as you grow and heal. Love to Gavin and know SuperTy is watching over you all

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  34. How amazing that Ty visited you during bath time. I bet Gavin is playing with Ty's toys to be closer to Ty and I bet Ty is encouraging him to play with his toys and even playing with him in spirit. You guys are such great and amazing parents. I don't know if I could have done what you did after he passed. Your strength is truly amazing, and Ty will continue to visit you and live on through all of you. God Bless you guys always!!!! xoxoxooxoxooxo

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  35. I just found your blog, after the news of your son's passing. I lost my beautiful 17 year old son not to cancer, but in an accident in February. As you mourn and grieve, I will be praying for you. I've not walked in your shoes, but I've walked the same path. If you need or want to connect,I will never judge you. mocbjh1@aol.com. Sherri

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    1. I l pray for your son. The day I found out my dad was dying with the worst day of my life. A child is so very precious my heart breaks. I am so sorry.

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  36. You are so amazing, Cindy! The signs of Ty are everywhere and how wonderful that you can see them, and feel him, so beautifully. What an incredible spirit you have! Ty was and forever will be a shining light in all of our lives because he lives through you! I LOVE that you heard his laughter! As a parent I can't think of a better sound in this world! I pray that you continue to breathe him in and know that there are thousands of people who have been changed and are better people because of Ty. Thank you again for your willingness to let us in to your lives. From across the US, Cathy

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  37. I can't imagine how hard these past few days have been for you and Lou and even Gavin. Gavin may seem like he is just playing and not feeling any pain, but I am sure that is because he still can see and play with Ty everywhere's! I bet Ty told him to grab his toys and play with them, as hard as it must be for you and Lou to watch him do that, feel comfort in knowing that Ty is right there with him playing with him. I was 5 when I had a baby sister pass away and I remember holding onto her toys and dolls and feeling her there. They were my connection to her! My heart aches for you and your husband and Gavin! I think of you and the family and Ty every single day! I'm sooo happy that you feel and hear Ty! You are forever connected, you will feel him for eternity!

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  38. My heart still breaks for you guys!
    http://johced-ourjourneytoeverywhere.blogspot.com/
    xxx

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  39. Looking forward to seeing the Ty banner pictures today. It warms my heart to see so many people reaching out and honoring Ty in such wonderful ways. Cindy, you are an inspiration to all of us Moms! You and your family are in my thoughts and prayers daily.

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  40. I am so glad you are seeing so may good signs of Ty everywhere. I think you need to remember Gavin was away from Ty alot so it's not unusal for him to not show any pain yet, it may take him awhile to realize that he really isn't coming back this time.It could also be because he IS seeing Ty so he doesn't have to miss him. I'm glad you let him play with Ty's toys,I'm sure Ty is playing there with him just like you saw. I love seeing all the pictures of the sky and signs of Ty and things being done in memory of him.You and your family have made such an impact on so many people all over the world.Thank you again for sharing Ty's (and your) journey with us all. God bless you and your family.....Jean <3

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  41. Oh Cindy! What beautiful signs you are getting from Ty! I have no doubt he is there with you. The connection you all had will never be broken. It just warms my heart. It's funny as I just wrote in my diary not long before I read your post how I felt my grandson was with me tonight. It's was a calming feeling that just came over me. Then I read your words and I had to smile. I believe we will always be connected to them as this is only part of our journey together...mind you it took me six months of deep grieving to get to this point and your story has helped me get there. Thank you..xx

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  42. Darin patterson nyOctober 23, 2012 at 9:32 AM

    I want to thank you for sharing SUPER TY'S story with us. I don't know you but i feel the pain, sorrow and tears like i do.

    I think of TY everyday and i would like to say to him thank you for all you have taught me and for making me a better man. You are more of a man at five than most of us are as adults.

    I ordered captain america knitted hats like the one TY has fo me, my wife and 2 year old son we will be wearing them all winter long in honor of TY LOUIS CAMPBELL OUR SUPER HERO.

    Thank You
    Darin

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  43. Cindy, I am still in awe with you and your story of Ty. I cry each day with you, I believe. I am so sorry. Ty will continue to come to you in so many ways and I am glad you are so open to receive the gifts he will bestow on you, on the earth, in all of our hearts. I have been a more patient woman now with my own boys. They are 5 & 3 and I think this is what has touches me so deeply. While I can never imagine the pain you feel, the sorrow in your heart, I can understand. No mother (or father, brother) should have to go throught this. God Bless you. And most of all, Thanky ou! Thank you for sharing the story and opening my eyes to the beauty of my children that I thought I lostin the everyday temper tantrums, fighting and aarguing. I have been watching instead, their laugther, joy and child like doings,they are playing together more, & as they should be, a child acts this way and how I am embracing it rather than not seeing the good of it. I saw a hawk yesterday. While I do see themoften, yesterday, I smiled at it and thanked him.
    Shawna
    Millbrook, NY

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  44. Sweet Gavin, what a wonderful gift you have given to your family and to all of us who have felt so connected to this journey. The unique bond that only you can share with Ty as brothers continues to grow and flourish, and your openness as a child to see, hear, feel, and experience the beauty that truly surrounds us gives everyone so much joy, comfort and hope.

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    1. So true. Beautifully said <3

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  45. Hi Cindy, Lou and Gavin, thank you so much for your posts. Yesterday I said to my son in bed can you please have a great day at school just for Ty. He doesn't get to experience school so can you give him a good day. i forgot about this when I picked him up and he told me "my I had a pretty bad day but I am am happy an have done alot of things today that Ty couldn'nt" He was still happy. Thanks Cindy for sharing Ty. He has made a difference in our lives.

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  46. Morning,

    My continued & constant thoughts & prayers are with everyone in the Campbell family. Ty is constantly in my thoughts - Ty will always have a very special place in my heart.

    God Bless.

    - Rob Swan

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  47. What a beautiful tribute to Ty. He was loved by so many and will continue to be remembered. Im happy that you and Lou got out of the house to see all the beautiful things happening. Im also very happy you heard Ty and you feel his presence. Those pictures of the sky are comforting and it does prove that Ty is in heaven enjoying every bit of it. Ill continue to pray for you and your family. Rest in peace Super Ty

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  48. What beautiful signs you received from Ty. I believe Ty and God are helping you to heal by showing you these signs and let you know he is OK and with you. Ty has tauht so many of us to appreciate every moment, to hug and love our children and don't be hard on them.

    May there be many more signs from Ty for the rest of your life. Sending you all peace and love..

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  49. Since finding out about this story I have been consumed with Ty. There's something very special about your little boy. I'm so happy he came to visit you, and I'm so happy he is showing himself to you all. I can't imagine the pain you are feeling and I imagine it will never really go away. I hope that Ty continues to remind us all that he is happy and free and will continue to show is presence.

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  50. It always sounds like you guys have some amazing people surrounding you! The things that have been done to honor Ty are heart warming! The bridge lights look awesome! I find myself, like you, seeing Ty everywhere! Because now he can spread his love for life with all of us. That being said, I have to tell you, I play Bingo, it was something that as my mother got older and I was living such a busy life with 6 kids, a business and a full time job, I always put Sunday afternoon aside to go to bingo with mom. I knew that if she died Monday, at least I spent Sunday with her, sad that life was that busy but it was. Well, mom's gone but my sis and I still go, we laugh and call it Family Bonding! So, Sunday,when I needed B1, I told my sister, that's Ty's number, he'll make sure that comes up...I start thinking come on Buddy, I need #1, I was rubbing my Ty Campbell bracelet like crazy, next ball-B1...I have 3000.00 in medical bills right now, so 500.00 took a good chunk out of it!! I came home and told my husband, Ty helped me win, he said it's just good to see you smile, I know how sad you've been mourning your little buddy. Hope this made you smile, thanks for sharing him with me, Love and Prayers, Always, Terri

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  51. Cindy - Thank you for updating us and for letting us into your world, just a little. I'm so glad that you were filled with signs from Ty about how much he loves you, Lou and Gavin. On one hand I can't believe it, but on the other I didn't expect anything less from SuperTy. I'm also glad that you were able to spend some time with Gavin. It made me smile through my tears to read how Ty made an appearance. He will probably do that for the rest of your days on this earth. I know it can't be easy for you to slowly get back into "the swing of things" with Gavin. If I were in your shoes it would be hard to remember what exactly "the swing of things" feels like. It's ok that you wanted to shout that those were Ty's toys. You're doing a great job, Cindy. You're handling everything with grace and dignity. It's ok if you cry all day long. It's ok if you are angry or if you want to shout profanities. It really is ok. I really can't believe Ty is gone and I'm just a Mom of a 4 year old little boy who is captivated by your story. Thank you for sharing the obvious signs with the rest of us that Ty will never truly leave you. We love you and are praying for you every single day.

    Marcia, Maryland

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  52. Hi Cindy, this morning when I was putting my daugher on the bus, she said look mommy a smily face in the sky, maybe thats TY from Heaven. I immediately thought that too. Lots of love to you. Fran Daniels

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  53. What a comfort to know you can still feel Ty's presence and hear his voice. Thinking of you, Lou and Gavin. I hope Gavin is doing as best as can be expected. Maybe he's also helping you to hear Ty's voice by playing with Ty's things and channeling Ty himself. :-)

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  54. I am so happy to see alI of these special things being done in Ty's honor. He was so very loved and so very special! I wanted to reply to your post yesterday but was unable. I can only imagine what you all have been going through. I started thinking that maybe you were no longer going to post on here and would continue to share Ty's journey on twitter and facebook. I feel that Ty is always going to be with you, you will feel his presence and I just know he will visit you in your dreams and send you all sorts of signs that he is with you. Ty will always be my Super Hero and I know he is yours. It was so beautiful and touching when Lou wrote the letter to Ty he shared on facebook that said Ty will always be his strength. My wish is in some way, all of us who you share your story with, give you strength in our words, thoughts, and prayers. "Strength in Numbers", right!

    You continue to amaze me, Cindy. I can't tell you how many times I have cried for you all. Your strength and beautiful writing are a gift -your gift -and a gift you share with so many. I keep telling myself, I want to be as strong as you and that if you and your family can endure so much, I can do anything. It is true, you are such an inspiration! My son, who is 3 yrs. old, was recently diagnosed with Autism. This is something I have pretty much known for a long time though. It just took a long time due to many different circumstances, to get the diagnosis. My point is that I know I can do all I need to do for him whether completely exhausting, no matter how long it takes. Your story and your strength have helped me in that way. I can't complain about anything. I have my son, a son that can be helped to flourish no matter how difficult. I will never give up just as you never gave up. I love you and your family so much! Pure love, super strength, never-ending fight are just a few of the things you all have shared with us. Thank you so much for continuing to share your story. I will do all I can to share it with as many as I can so we can put an end to cancer and the suffering it causes these precious babies.

    God bless You!
    Always thinking of You,
    Love and Hugs from Tracy in FL

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  55. Oh G-D you couldnt have chosen a more beautiful precious perfect baby to be always associated with pediatric cancer in my eyes. Even when his body was beaten up, his face never looked like of a sick child. It remained untouched on the horrors happening inside of him.I feel like he is real on all pictures, I couldnt look at his pictire today because it means that its from the past, Ty is from the past, how can that be?! As always I am so so sorry Ty, for your suffering, for your family suffering. I am happy that Gavin remains happy, he deserves that because its now on his little ahoulders to make you smile and laugh when your hearts are bleeding Cindy and Lou and thats a big responsibility for a little guy like that. But I know he will do his job. Thank you Ty for sensing signs to mommy, I trully for the first time in my life believe that we are only really alive for eternity after we leave our bodies and let our souls be free. You are alive little baby. I will always think of you this way. Kisses to the whole Campbell family. You are my forever heroes.

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  56. Cindy, your family is in my prayers. My heart breaks for Gavin. He is too young to understand that he will not see his brother again. Especially since Ty spent so much time in the hospital. I can understand the pain you and Lou felt seeing Gavin happily pull that toy out and play with it but it saddens me to know that Gavin won't have his best brother to play with and he doesn't even really know that. I know you and Lou will always speak of Ty to Gavin and keep all of their special memories as brothers, alive. My kids don't remember my mother because she passed away (cancer) and they were only one and two and my third child was born 4 years later but I always spoke of their grandma, telling them stories about her and how much she loved them. It's so painful but I know she is always watching over them and has even come to them which was so heartwarming. You wait and see when Gavin tells you he saw his brother and speaks to him. Children are known to be in tune with spirits, it really is amazing. I am so sorry for your pain. I have grown to love SuperTy in the short time I am following your beautiful blog. I prayed so hard for his miracle so he could stay right where he belongs. But as you said, Ty was and always will be a miracle. He has left an imprint on all of our hearts - all around this great big world. Thank you so much for sharing him with us and sharing Gavin and Lou who we grew to love just the same. Keeping you all in my prayers. SuperTy forever and ever <3

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  57. Ty will always be with you and finding little ways to let you know he is there - I'm sure he was in the bath with Gavin and I'm glad you could feel his presence. And as hard as it is to see Gavin playing with Ty's things - it will help you all to keep Ty's memory alive and in your heart.

    I never knew that info about ladybugs - so amazing. I can't imagine what it must feel like to see so many at once - especially at a time when you're desperately hoping for a sign. And the clouds and rainbows. Definitely makes my heart a little lighter to think that Ty is reaching out to let you know he's there and he always will be.

    I don't know how you, Lou and Gavin will make it through this. You can only take one day at time and go moment by moment. Continue to reach out to all of us - whether your sad, angry, happy - whatever emotions you're going through, we'll be here to support you. I'm so glad you plan to keep blogging and I know you'll be doing great things through Ty's Foundation. Anything I can do to help - volunteer, spread the message, help raise funds - I'm here along with everyone else whose life has been changed by your precious boy.

    Thinking of you guys - SuperTy always and forever.

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  58. Yes, signs are everywhere. It's amazing to feel your loved ones presence after they have passed. I have several personal experiences to confirm. Glad you are feeling him everywhere. I wouldn't have doubted it for one second! Btw, if you want to chuckle.... we had a Thomas the Tank engine clog out toilet tank (Courtesy of my daughter)! Needless to say, our toilet and Thomas met their final resting place in the junkyard!

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  59. What a beautiful post, as always. Your words and honest emotions just amaze me. I'm so thankful Ty is sending you signs. God Bless you.

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  60. I was directed to your blog a few weeks ago. Like so many others, I have been forever changed by learning of Ty's story and by your incredible words, perspective on life, and strength. For years, I have struggled with my faith. I am not a religious or particularly spiritual person, but the moment I saw Ty, I thought to myself, “if there are such things as angels, this little boy is one living among us.” I felt very drawn and connected to him, as do so many others, as is evidenced by the comments on this blog. I think this is because you have this amazing ability to tell Ty’s story in such a powerful way that others feel like they know him and are taking his journey with you.

    The day Ty passed away, I felt like I needed to something so I purchased one of his Captain America hats from the auction for my 1 year old son. I vow that my son will run around with it all winter (no matter how big it is) and that it will serve as a constant reminder to me to enjoy him and to allow him to show me how to be a silly, goofy kid again. I was so very upset when Ty passed…so much so that I questioned whether it was “normal” or “healthy” for me to be so, so upset and consumed by this little boy whom I’ve never met. His death made me think about all of those tough questions, “what happens when we die;” “why did this happen to this beautiful child, this wonderful mother; this beautiful family.” In those moments, I wished that I had strong faith…like you, like my mom, and others that I know…because it would give me some comfort. Shortly after I was having these thoughts, my wish for a little bit of faith and comfort was answered.

    This year for Halloween, I promised my cousin I would give her my daughter’s Halloween costume from a few years ago for her little girl The day before Ty passed away, I discovered that I had lost a piece of the costume, which annoyed me to no end. I tore my house apart, couldn’t find it, and gave up trying. On the day after Ty passed away, I got this tremendous urge to find it; thought of the one place I hadn’t looked; and then pulled everything out of my hallway closet. I didn’t find it. But, I did find something else. At the very bottom of the closet was a big gray plastic circle thing with a black strap. I flipped it over --a Captain America shield. My son is too young to be into superheros; the shield doesn’t belong to him; and it doesn’t belong to my 4 and 6 year old princess-obsessed daughters (I can assure you). I think that someone probably left it at our house a few years ago and in the chaos of my life, it got shoved at the bottom of the closet. Maybe it is just a coincidence that I chose to look in that closet, the day after Ty passed, at the same time that I was so consumed with thoughts of him and my crisis of faith, and maybe it is just a coincidence that it just happened to be a Captain America shield…maybe….but I don’t believe that….especially, because, the minute I flipped the shield over, my face broke out in a huge smile. And, at that moment, my mind and my emotions, which had been in such upheaval after learning of Ty’s death, felt comfort and peace. He is with us, of that I am sure.

    Thank you for sharing your beautiful angel with us. Both you and Ty have taught me so much, have restored my faith, and made me believe in magic again. From the bottom of my heart, thank you.

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  61. Hi Cindy, thought this would make you smile - I was just washing the dishes and on my kitchen window there was a ladybird (we call them this in the UK!) I've not seen one in my garden for I don't know how long and there she was clear as day on my kitchen window. I smiled and immediately thought of Ty. I'm in Glasgow (Scotland) and your little boy is making sure I'm remembering him by sending the ladybird! I think of you all everyday and thank Ty for showing me everything that he achieved in his short life. I hope to be as good a mum to my three kids as you are to yours. Keep strong and keep smiling for your precious Ty and beautiful Gavin. Much love and kind blessings from Scotland xx

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  62. You and your family are all angels. Your ability to write so honestly and openly is a gift. So many are drawn to all of you. We all agree, no child should ever have to endure so much. Ty has taught and reminded so many that life is short. One never knows what is around the corner. We all need to enjoy life, tell those around us how we feel. It does not matter your wealth in terms of financial, only in terms of family and friends. With the love and strength of family and friends, we can all survive.

    When my dad passed 6 years ago, we had signs from butterflies. Those signs are real and will always put a smile on your face. Super Ty rocks!!

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  63. Thank you so much for sharing all these wonderful signs with us. Ty's presence is felt all over and will sure do so for all etenity with that bright smile and love for life. Cindy you are an inspiration to all and we feel very blessed to be a part of this journey through your blog and will continue to talk about Ty and childhood cancer on our side of the world :) sending you, Lou, Gavin and family much love and strength from Malaga, Spain. We love you Ty xx

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  64. May god bless you and your entire family. I only came to know of Ty a few weeks ago, but how he has changed everything for me. I hope that in time your hurt will lessen. Know that all Ty went through wasn't in vain his legacy will continue and make a change for pediatric cancer. God bless you and your entire family you are all an inspiration to us.

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  65. Ty was playing with Gavin in that bathtub. And he is playing with his little brother every time Gavin plays with ond of Ty's toys. Children do not always grieve or fear the same way that adults do. They are also blessed with seeing and knowjng things that we don't always know.

    When my niece Peyton passed away, my daughter (4 at the time) never cried. She started drawing pictures of babies in caskets, and my husband and I became really worried. But Emily remained happy. When we looked more closely at her drawings we noticed that in every drawing, the baby in the casket was smiling and happy.

    Emily has seen Peyton a few times and has played with her. She even came to her on the playground at school. Each time it happened, Emily spoke about it very matter of factly.

    After my uncle passed, Emily saw him up in the sky above the place where we gathered after the funeral. Again, she was not afraid, but was excited to tell my aunt that she saw him.

    Gavin may or may not understand what he is feeling yet. Or he may just not be sad, because his brother has never left his side.

    SuperTy will continue to bless you with signs. I am sure of it. And someday, after we all leave this world, the answers will be revealed so that we can finally make some sense of all of this. In the meantime, just know that we are all here for you and Ty will never be forgotten. You and your whole family have changed our lives so much, and we will continue to spread awareness until pediatric cancer is no more. Fly high, SuperTy!

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  66. Thank you for sharing Ty with us. I'm learning so much from you. As a mother, as a real person. You are so courages, so brave. I pray for Ty and your family daily.
    Jennifer
    Doylestown, PA

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  67. On my way walking into work yesterday morning I was going over your post in my head. I was consumed in thought and felt such sadness for you. I suddenly looked down (i was on a skywalk)and saw a truck in the parking lot that had Ty Electronics painted on othe side. Coincidence? Maybe....however, I can only think it was a small sign from your boy saying don't be sad for my mommy..I am still here with her more than ever.

    I really can't imagine your pain as I have never met Ty but I have cried several times a day since last week thinking of you and Ty. You have proved here that there is nothing like a mother's love for their child. Thank you for continuing to share and I will continue thinking and hoping and praying for you, Ty and your family.

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  68. Your couragous battle amazes me! I look for butterflies as a sign from my grandmother but have also had the feeling that somthing spiritual is within the lady bug.... As I am sure you aware of this already but........you will ALWAYS be connected to your baby........Keep looking and he will always be right there!

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  69. I haven't been able to comment since I heard the news. Nothing I say will ease the pain.
    Ty was so beautiful, thank you for sharing him.
    Love to you all from Wappingers Falls

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  70. A plane and a banner just flew over me in Miller Place Long Island fo r Ty....Xo

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  71. Thank you for continuing to write about Ty and this journey your family is on. It has changed my life in just a few short weeks. It brings me to my knees to even imagine the pain you are in, but I pray that it gives you some comfort knowing that Ty is having such a profound impact on this world. I love the picture of the hawk cloud in the sky...what a beautiful representation of how enormous Ty's spirit is and how beautifully he must be smiling down on you all with the joy of being set free. My thoughts, prayers, and love go out to you all.

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  72. The other day I was sitting on my porch thinking of you and Ty and I looked up and saw 2 hawks soaring high in the sky. I watched them for a long time and I felt it was a sign from above. Ty is free and at peace and joyful.


    Prayers and love to you!

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  73. I continue to think and pray for your family daily. I think of Ty often and have been telling his story to everyone that will listen. I am flying from TX to PA to do a brain tumor 5K in November in my aunts honor and now I will also be thinking of Ty that day. I will continue to read your blog as long as you keep writing it and hope to find a way to help you fight this horrible battle to finally find a cure for childhood cancer.

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  74. The picture of the cloud over your house is really amazing; I'm so glad you are feeling him everywhere. I keep praying for him and for your family.

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  75. I to have a ill child, 2, and a healthy child,3. I can completely relate to the unfairness, hesitance and protection you feel for ty, especially since he is no longer here and can no longer express his own concerns. But as a, mother Cindy, i must tell you it is crucial to allow our healthy children to occupy space in our grief ridden hearts because when God calls, there is no bringing them back. Still in all, your amazing, Lou is amazing, and precious Gavin is following in his brothers foot steps and becoming so super strong, so Superty. God bless you all.

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  76. I saw that same rainbow and thought of Ty. I am a complete stranger, and had never met him, but through your amazing writing, I feel like I did. He is in my heart and I think of you all often. Thank you for sharing him with us.

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  77. I am so very sorry for your loss of Ty. What a beautiful boy and family you are. You are all in my thoughts and prayers.

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  78. This quote made me think of you all and little super Ty.

    Sometimes it makes me sad, though... him being gone. I have to remind myself that some birds aren't meant to be caged. Their feathers are just too bright. And when they fly away, the part of you that knows it was a sin to lock them up DOES rejoice. But still, the place you live in is that much more drab and empty that they're gone. I guess I just miss my boy.

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  79. I love that Ty is sending you so many signs...it's so comforting for all of us. I hope that you are able to continue to see them day after day...and find the peace you need.

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  80. Oh my gosh, the cloud in the shape of an hawk. Amazing. I saw a hawk yesterday in Somers. I smiled and thought of Ty.

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  81. I have been reading your blog for over a year now and sitting at the edge of my seat every day for an update on Ty. I am so sorry that he is gone but I am happy that he is no longer laying on the couch suffering and watching life pass him by. Now he is free and will be with you and your family all of your days. I feel like Ty has influenced my life so much. We have a 1 year old dog...his name is Tyson. We call him Ty Ty. When I read that Ty had passed I decided that I needed to change my life for the better. I quit smoking on October 18th in honor of Ty. I have not smoked since and have promised myself I will never smoke again. Always will I know that a little boy named Ty changed my life for the better. I have no doubt he has changed the lives of all of your readers in one way or another. He will live on in all of us.

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  82. Cindy, Just today I came upon a poem I had printed out a while ago, and I immediately thought of you. If you have a chance to read it, it may give you a moment of respite, peace, hope. It's called "Parable of Immortality" by Henry Van Dyke. You can find it online, and there are some readings of it on YouTube.
    ~ Wishing you peace ~

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  83. The day I read about Ty's passing I was sitting on my floor in my bedroom going through laundry. I was sad that day for you and remembering my dad who also died from a brain tumor. My middle child only 3 years old walks in and grabs the picture of my dad on my nightstand. He pointed to it and said with much encouragement, "Grandpa's with Jesus and Mary. He loves you." My son has never met my dad. Our loved ones never leave us. Ty is with you. He'll always be with you and he'll remind you throughout your life. The love between a parent and child is forever written in eternity and nothing can ever keep us apart. I'm glad my dad is no longer suffering. There are no words that can describe the hurt I'll always feel from losing my hero but I take comfort knowing he's watching my children and knowing he's in heaven in God's presence. Love makes it impossible for our loved ones to ever leave us.

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  84. You guys are amazing and inspiring me not take any moment for granted. I admire your strength. My heart breaks for you and your family but i am consoled that TY is a perfect angel now and is free to live as happy as he deserves to be. May God bless you all in this time of grievance. ♥

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  85. Cindy: You live in a wonderful community and you have a great network of friends and family! All the events they planned to honor Ty were so special and befitting of your son. I was thinking you should write a book! You can title it: "How SuperTy Changed the World!" The back cover can go on to describe how a little boy fought so hard against an evil disease while at the same time, changing mothers and children everywhere for the better! He certainly opened my eyes to what is and what is not important. My two kids enjoyed their first puddle jumping in their life because of him. I miss him and love him so much. He lives in my memories and in my heart. I pray for Gavin and your family daily.

    Laura in Texas

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  86. Thank you for sharing. The photos are truly amazing. We will keep your family in our hearts always. Hugs from NC.

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  87. So beautiful and inspirational. My heart breaks for you and your family, you all will be in my prayers.
    Colleen (mahopac).

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  88. Dearest Cindy, I started following your blog a couple of weeks ago after my sister told me about it, as she knows a member of your family here on Long Island. There has not been a day gone by since Ty passed that I haven't shed a tear for your family, especially for you being a mother myself. I lost a good friend to brain cancer (she was in her 30's) a couple of years back. She LOVED ladybugs. From time to time we see ladybugs in the strangest places, and we know it is her way of letting us all know she is ok. I am so sure that the ladybugs were a sign from your beautiful boy. I'm sure there is nothing harder in life to go through than losing a child. I pray that God holds your family in the palm of his hands, and grants you peace. As the mother of a baby girl and a four year old boy (a little younger than Ty) my heart bleeds for you. I will pray for Ty and your family every day. Sending love and prayers from Long Island....tanyajennifer@hotmail.com

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  89. Mark and Lisa SanfilippoOctober 23, 2012 at 4:09 PM

    Cindy and Lou,
    Amazing things continue to happen. All truly, wonderful signs for you to embrace. To hear about his laugh, his voice, brought tears to our eyes. How wonderful that he came to you in that moment. We await to hear about so many more beautiful, loving signs and moments. Ty will move mountains throughout his journey with you. Always blessings and thoughts to you.
    Mark and Lisa, Fishkill, NY

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  90. Forgot to add what beautiful, selfless people you and your husband are. Some people in their entire long lifetime will never feel even a fraction of the love that Ty felt from the two of you in his five years. For that your little angel was blessed <3

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  91. MY ANGEL CORD
    We are connected my Child and I,
    by an invisible cord, not seen by the eye.

    It’s not like the cord that connects us from birth.
    This cord can’t be seen by anyone on Earth.

    This cord does its work right from the start.
    It binds us together attached to my heart.

    I know that it’s there, though no one can see,
    the invisible cord from my Child to me.

    The strength of this cord is hard to describe,
    it can’t be destroyed, it can’t be denied.

    It’s stronger than any cord man could create.
    It withstands the test and can hold any weight.

    Though you are gone and not here with me,
    this cord is still there but no one can see.

    It pulls at my heart, I am bruised, I am sore.
    But this cord is my lifeline as never before.

    I am thankful that God connects us this way.
    A mother and child, nothing can take it away.

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  92. The Reunion Heart

    Since Heaven has become your home
    I sometimes feel I'm so alone;
    and though we now are far apart
    you hold a big piece of my heart.

    I never knew how much I'd grieve
    when it was time for you to leave
    or just how much my heart would ache
    from the one fragment you would take.

    God lets this tender hole remain
    reminding us we'll meet again
    and one day all the pain will cease
    when He restores this missing piece.

    He'll turn to joy my every tear
    with thoughts of you I hold so dear
    and they'll become my special way
    to treasure our Reunion Day.

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  93. I SWEAR to you I watched that same rainbow on my ride home through the LIRR window the night Ty passed. I thought of him the entire way and remember thinking "how cool, probably a simple scientific explanation but wouldn't it be nice if that represented Ty's spirit". Now I know it did.

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  94. Cindy & Lou,

    Amazing, beautiful, all the wonderful things that have been happening in honor of Ty! However, I am far from surprised. Ty = Amazing!

    My heart continues to break for you guys. The "lady bugs" amazing too.

    After 35 years of not being sure, not truly believing, I will tell you that I now believe in Heaven.

    Forever Changed

    Joy Marielle
    Baltimore, MD

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  95. Thank you again for sharing. God bless your family and may He carry you through this time. And as one person stated in the comments, "Keep believing!" Love & hugs to you.

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  96. Last Wed. I was driving to South Bend with my 20 mos. For her first concert -- the Fresh Beat Band. She was sleeping in the back and my mind wandered to your blog and Ty. As we drove through the country early in the afternoon I saw a red tailed hawk fly by and land on a nearby utility pole. I immediately thought of TLC! The next day I logged on and saw Ty had passed right around the same time I saw the hawk. Your son has touched me so deeply. He has made me a betterMom. I send you and your family all the blessings and love possible. Thank you for sharing him with us. Thank you for showing the world what true grace and love look like.

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  97. What a beautiful tribute your are paying to Ty. I am so sorry for your suffering, your loss, your pain. Ty's story will continue to inspire so many of us, hopefully there is some comfort in knowing the lives your precious son has touched, and will continue to touch.

    I absolutely hate that he had to leave you...God Bless you always.

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  98. Ty has given me such great inspiration to raise money for ty.

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  100. Cindy, Lou & Gavin
    I have loved your little Ty since I was first brought to you blog. He touched my heart and I prayed for him and your family and will continue. I wanted so much for him to be healed. I "believe" in Ty and miracles and I think there are still so many more miracles to come. Ty has touched so many souls in such a profound way for such a little guy through your words Cindy. With all the heart break that comes from losing Ty for now there is such a since of happiness knowing how many good and loving people are in our world who were willing to love and pray for Ty. So many people really have loved TY and your family including myself.
    The other day I thought of the song "Beautiful Bird" by Cindy Morgan after reading one of your post about the hawk release and then Ty's passing. I think it is such a beautiful and fitting song. Especially the lines "Even if we are all broken
    We are each a reflection of God
    Living with your arms wide open
    Oh spreading your wings to take off"

    Ty's body may have been "broken" with cancer but Ty was and still is a reflection of God, strong,beautiful, brave, and full of purpose.

    Ty was born to fly! He has spread his wings to take off! Love and prayers to the Campbell family. You have our hearts! God Bless ~ Christine, OH

    Here are the words and a link to the song....
    http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Ga8yRg9_bfI

    Somebody caught you off guard
    Clipped your wings and broke your heart
    Told you you'll never get out of here
    You believed it all these years

    That's not what you were made for
    'Cause you were made for the sky
    That's not what you were born for
    'Cause you were born to fly

    Everyone knows what it feels like
    When they tell you you don't measure up
    You just weren't meant for the bright lights
    Oh but lovely is as lovely does

    And love is much deeper than beauty
    And beauty much deeper than skin
    There in the eyes of your mother, your father
    Is where it begins to sink in

    Beautiful bird
    Ooh fly
    Beautiful bird
    Ooh fly

    Beautiful bird
    Ooh fly, fly

    Beautiful bird
    Beautiful bird
    Ooh fly

    Even if we are all broken
    We are each a reflection of God
    Living with your arms wide open
    Oh spreading your wings to take off

    Beautiful bird
    Ooh fly
    Beautiful bird
    Ooh fly
    (Oh spread your wings beautiful bird)

    Beautiful bird
    (Beautiful bird)
    Ooh fly, fly

    Beautiful bird
    Beautiful bird
    Ooh fly.....................

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  101. Thinking of your family everyday. Smiling because I can picture Ty laughing and jumping from cloud to cloud in Heaven!

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  102. Thinking of your family everyday. Smiling because I can picture Ty laughing and jumping from cloud to cloud in Heaven!

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  103. Thinking of your family everyday. Smiling because I can picture Ty laughing and jumping from cloud to cloud in Heaven!

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  104. Hi Cindy and Lou you are such brave parents !!! You are my heores as Parents. Cindy have to tell you I lost my sister 5 yrs ago at he age 0f 47 from tongue cancer ( she never smoked or drank , we called her mother Tearse!
    I know losing a child is different then losing a sister . I could feel her hand on my shoulder the night she had died then I could hear her talkin to me ( she was not able to speak the laast yr ) it was so comforting to hear her voice. There is always signs that she never left my side, I miss her very much . There is times when I look for her in a crowd cause I can feel her presence. Just know when you gave Your beautiful Gavin his bath Your sweet lil Ty was there . I wish we could find a cure for this Fucking cancer !!!!!! I know it will happen one day !!! Praying for your and your family and may your beautiful TY wrap his wing around you and comfort you!!!!

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  105. I usually read your blog at night or in the early morning. Times when I'm "off" mommy duty. I have 2 little boys and earlier this week I checked in on you while sitting next to my 3 yr old on the couch. I've never shared Ty's story with my 3 yr old. So there I am, reading, when Ethan says "Ty Ty Ty Ty Ty." He often says weird random stuff so I asked him what was he saying. He said "mommy, I sayin Ty Ty Ty Ty." Call it coincedence, but I was covered in goosebumps.
    I just felt the need to share that story with you.
    Thank you for sharing your story with us. Ty has so many fans, and it's so easy to fall in love with your family. We're sending you prayers and positive thoughts. I hope you start sleeping better soon.
    Marcela
    Reston, VA

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  106. Look at the stars, look how they shine for you!!!

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  107. Thinking about the Campbell's and your angel Ty. It's seems like its all I've been thinking about. I hug my boys extra tight now thanks to you and your family. The tribute of the lighting of the bridge or Ty was so beautiful. You are in my thoughts and prayers.

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  108. I've been praying for Ty to visit you, to watch over you and to comfort you. I'm so glad he's finding so many ways to show you he's there. I was unpacking my little ones backpack today and there was a picture of a ladybug there that he had colored :-) I found it quite a nice comforting surprise. Peace and prayers to you all. I am forever changed by Ty for the better and will always remember him.

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  109. I am so happy to hear that you got to see and hear Ty. What a wonderful blessing that must have been. I hope he continues to visit you when you need him most. I also have to add my sightings to your list. Usually when someone passes that I know I look to the sky a few days later for the steps to heaven. Saturday I was on my way to get my new phone when I happened to look up at the sky. Instead of the steps to heaven I saw a huge cloud shaped like a small child with spiky hair in a superman pose "flying" along the horizon. Because my old phone wasn't working I couldn't snap a picture but as soon as I got the new one I drew it on the drawing app I downloaded and it is now my screensaver. I am quite convinced that SuperTy was flying high and it made me smile. I hope it makes you smile too even if only for a second.

    And for those of you who were not at the Poughkeepsie candle lighting let me say how amazing Cindy and Lou were by all the time they spent talking with, being hugged by and smiling with everyone, most they probably didn't even know. That makes them pretty super too. Renee did a fabulous job of making it happen.
    Nanci D.

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  110. I just started reading your blog last and I haven't been able to stop thinking about Ty. The way you and your husband showed your love for Ty the day of his passing was remarkable. You are both extraordinary. May God bless you and may you always feel Ty all around you.

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  111. It is not fair. You should not have had to sleep in your bed with you child's body getting colder and colder between the two of you. I'm sorry but I cannot help feeling so much sadness and anger over this. How can life be so darn cruel. I don't even know you, but I cannot stand to think of the heaviness, anguish, impending emptiness....you have endured and continue to endure. It just tears my heart to pieces. I am so glad you were both able to be with him every step of the way right up until it was no longer possible. You two are incredibly, amazing and strong...just like Ty. I can't help but think back to the time when I lost my son and my three year old daughter was my saving grace. She held be together with her sweet and innocent caring and concern. Once she walked into the bedroom to find me with tears and snot everywhere. Just when I thought I there was no way I could cry any more she asked why I was crying and I told her I missed her brother. Her sweet little voice said: "But mommy, you still have me". WOW. Then there was the saddest, most precious, most beloved hug between the two of us. Thank God she was there to give me an unquestionable reason to go on. And now I have two more. Children are a true miracle, whether still with us, or sadly departed. When I think of your family now I just have to remember that Ty is no longer suffering...that is what pulls me out of the sadness. I'm so happy that you have an incredible community of supportive and compassionate people to hold you up. I will never stop praying for you and willing you much strength. Love you all! I can't help it, I just do. Missing Ty with you today and always...

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  112. I can't stop thinking about your beautiful angel he's in my thoughts all day. I cannot see the justice here, you should all not be suffering this tragedy, your love and kindness amazes me, your all blessed with such unbelievable strength. When I look at Ty's pictures and his beautiful golden hair and angelic face. He truly was an angel on earth. Gavin is just as beautiful. I'm sure he wants to have Ty close to him also, let him play and be always near. My favorite picture is you kissing that sweet baby on his lips after his bath. I do hope you can find some peace sometimes, take a walk with Gavin and Lou somewhere away from everything and everyone down a beautiful country road on a beautiful fall day and tell both those angels how special they are, and remember just how special you and Lou are. I will be praying for all of you.

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  113. Cindy may God wrap you and your family in a blanket of comfort, and may your little hero send you signs that will give you peace and joy and comfort. You are an amazing person and I keep you Lou and Gavin in my prayers. Rest in peace amazing Ty. xo

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  114. If you ever need to reflect and continue spiritual guidance talk to Deborah www.beingknowingdoing.com. God bless your beautiful family, you are all angels sent from heaven. Thank you for sharing your story.

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  115. I didn't connect it before, but the day he died I saw a couple rainbows too.
    I love you Ty.

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  116. I have been mourning the loss of your sweet boy, along with all those who knew him only through your words on a computer screen. I am so very sorry that you had to let him go but know how very blessed you were to have him, even for a very short time. I want to thank you for helping me realize how short life really is and how important it is to embrace every moment you can. I have a 5 year old boy who reminds me of your super Ty and during those moments that he is pushing my buttons, I think of you and how you'd give anything for Ty to be able to push those buttons. Your story and your sweet boy have made me appreciate the good moments and the frustrating times as well. I will continue to keep your family in my prayers and I will pray that you see your precious angel in your dreams. God Bless you. Rest in peace sweet boy. I will think of you often. SW in PA

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  117. I just love reading your blogs! I think about you guys often and look forward to hearing about how you guys are doing. Please don't stop keeping us in the loop. I feel like I know you guys. Not hearing from you, would make me feel like I haven't heard from a friend. And especially when you guys are going through such a hard time. I look at cancer so differently and want to help more then I ever have before. Thanks to your sweet boy. I look forward to meeting him in heaven! God bless you and your family Cindy
    With love, Tracy~ from Montana

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  118. Brothers share a bond like no other, just as a mother and child have their own. As painful as it is to watch Gavin play with Ty's toys, it must be painful for Gavin to not have Ty to play with...maybe its his way of keeping Ty near. Maybe, sometimes, he IS playing with Ty. It is said that children are more open to the spiritual world. Perhaps you have a few of Ty's favorites to hold and keep...
    You'll find your way through this, Ty will lead you.
    So happy to read of the uplifting events in honor of Ty! God bless your family.

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    1. This is exactly what I was thinking. Maybe he was so happy to play with that toy...like he was playing with his brother. My heart aches for Gavin. The way you described how much he loves Ty. Cancer has taken so much Gavin as well. He should have had such awesome memories of his childhood and I can't help thinking how all this has impacted him. I've thought about him constantly since your post about his nanny. I'm so worried she will have to leave soon. I can't imagine him losing his brother and his "best friend"/mother fill-in all in the same month! That is just too much!

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  119. Trying to find new ways to say this -- Cindy, you absolutely blow my mind. What an inspiration you are. Hang in there. Thinking of you and your sweet baby every day.

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  120. I saw your title and just knew what it would say! My son sends us lady bugs where ladybugs have no business- starting with a miserable, freezing February day with horrible winds- the day after he died! They are a gift and a sure message that Ty is always with you and loves you so. God bless you all and God bless ladybugs :)

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  121. Cindy, I have to tell you how much your little angel changed the way I go about my days. No longer do little things bother me, no longer do I get down on my issues in life. Every thing that the average person gets frustrated at like being stressed at work or having issues paying the bills and things like that are nothing compared to what that little boy dealt with every freaking day. The more people learn about TY and his story the more they will all realize how strong he was and how special he was. Ty was just a little boy fighting the hardest battle ever and to think that little angel had the courage and the heart and the toughness to put a smile on his face when their was every reason in the world for him to just break down and be afraid and be sad and miserable and be resentful and nasty and frustrated with the hand he was dealt. Most people in his shoes would have never been able to smile and act like the true angel TY was and always will be. It blows me away, it really really does that days leading up to TY's passing he is in pictures lighting up the room smiling, it is so inspiring. One month ago I knew very little about TY and his family and here we are a few weeks later and I feel like I lost some one very close to me. TY had that effect on so many of us and in his short 5 years on this earth he has impacted so many people in the world and for that we are thankful to know TY Campbell and his amazing story. God Bless!!!!!

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  122. I saw a big, beautiful, double rainbow here in Florida about an hour after hearing the news that Ty had passed away. My mom and I looked at each other and both said "it's a sign from Ty" at the same time. What an amazing boy, and you and Lou are amazing parents. Thank you for sharing your story with all of us and thank you for the huge positive impact you have had on countless lives, mine included. I cry and pray for you every day. May you continue to feel Ty's presence always. God bless you all, Cindy, Lou and Gavin. xoxo

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  123. Where can I get one of the captain America hats? He is my sons favorite super hero too. He would love one! And it would be going toward such a good cause...

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  124. Cindy, Lou, and GaGa,

    Like many people who read your blog religiously, I have never met you. However, again like many people, I have read your blog from start to finish more than once, going on this journey with you and feeling like I know you all. Your family and of course especially SuperTy, have touched my life more than you will ever know. I do not have children of my own but my family has been deeply affected by cancer (I lost my dad at a very young age to brain cancer) I know that does not compare to what you are going through but through your blog I feel your pain so deeply as though you are all my family. I will continue to read your blog forever- I have been checking every day for a post and I am glad you will continue to share your journey. I know for a fact that Ty will visit you in your dreams, it may take a little while as he is likely getting acclimated to his new surroundings, but my dad has visited me often and it is comforting so I look forward to when you can feel that warmth and connection. There are no words... I am glad that you find comfort in all of your support and prayers. I will continue to talk to Ty every night (as I have been for a while now) and pray for you and your family. You are all amazing.
    Again, although we have never met, I truly love you all.
    Love, Lauren (a friend of Jamie Madison)

    P.S. I just want to tell you that I asked my dad to help Ty cross over and find the mud puddles, candy and rainbows he deserves.

    P.P.S. I would love to show my support by wearing a SuperTy T-shirt all the time. I know this is probably the last question you want to answer but how can I get one so I can spread his and your story and strength to everyone when I am wearing it?

    Thank you so much for letting me be a part of your journey. I love you all.

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      I just happen to see your post and its beautiful and true. My Mom has also come to me in my dreams. Anyhow, I wanted to tell you that maybe you could write this lady on FB and inquire about a Superty shirt. Here's the link. All the best to you. Laura Schaefer
      It's called Gold ribbons & Superty symbols

      http://www.facebook.com/GoldRibbonsSupertySymbols?ref=stream

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      Thank you so much for reading my post and replying I will definitely go on FB and figure it out.

      I am glad you have had similar experiences with your mom as I have with my dad. I hope you find it as comforting as I have.

      All the best to you as well. -Lauren

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  125. Cindy & Lou! We are deeply in pain and very sad that Ty soul has left his body. I saw one interview of yours today, thought of sharing here with all. It brought me in tears but at same time I was happy to see Ty alive in your arms. Ty is every where but being a mother, I can understand the missing element of feeling your child, touching, holding, kissing..

    http://www.ksdk.com/news/article/343446/9/Ty-Campbell-dies-at-5-years-old

    Hope cure of this terrible terrible disease is found asap. I wonder how many children's lives it will take for people to get awareness. No child deserve to suffer the torture and pain of cancer and it's horrific treatments...

    Thank you for sharing your child with us. He is a beautiful little fellow who always resides in our hearts. LOVE YOU TY!!!!!Hope you are safe and pain free.

    Thank you Cindy for making us realize to cherish every moment with our children as they are very fragile and life cannot be taken forgranted.

    Love you TY & Good nite sweet little boy!! We Miss you but at same time, I feel you are pain free.. but I wish you could have been pain free here on this earth with your best mom, dad,your little bro & all of us.

    Please keep on spreading the word.. Fight against cancer will never end...

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  126. God Bless you and your family. I have recently battled this evil disease and can truly tell you from first hand experience, Ty was a true hero. After my cancer I have been laying low almost trying to hide from this disease because im scared to death I wont be so lucky the second time around. But your blog and your family sharing Ty and his love of life has made a difference. I may not be an advocate for myself but Ill gladly be one for Ty and any child forced to fight this battle.Im glad you moved to Pawling we truly love your family and if you need anything just ask we are here for you. Keep your eyes open for the signs they will always be there <3

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  127. Lou, Cindy, Ty, and Gavin - I think of you often throughout each day and pray for you to continue to find strength, peace and grace. Thank you for sharing your beautiful story.

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  128. Oh Cindy....we saw the plane too all the way down on Long Island. A friend of mine shared with me she saw it going over 25A in Miller Place, boy Ty can really fly!

    Your lady bug story also hit home. Just this weekend we were celebrating the "life" of a beloved friend that passed away from Brain Cancer in July of 2010. She fought for a year and left a wonderful husband and two young boys behind, Nate is now 7 and Mason is 5. After the "Walk for Jules" (an event that your family member Colleen Liebowitz was also at, we are all in the same Pre-school) we all gathered at a friends house to enjoy the beautiful afternoon and celebrate Jules life. As I am talking to her husband Dan I see a lady bug on his neck. We all stood still, we knew what this meant. In just a few minutes the backyard was full of hundreds of lady bugs and we all just knew that it was Jules telling us that she is ok, that she was with us that beautiful afternoon. It was very special and just happened this weekend so to read your post about your ladybug experience just confirms what I already knew, that Jules was there just like your little Ty is with you.

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  129. Cindy I'm so glad to see your still going to post and update us with Ty-isms, memories, feelings, emotions and stories. I was so worried we wouldn't hear from you again due to the pain and angst your're going thru. Seeing your recent posts, as hard and sad as they are, are still uplifting as usual. I can imagine how hard bath time must have been in ur bathroom but I'm so happy Ty came thru and u felt and heard him. And that picture of the banner flying high over ur town on FB was perfection. That along with the lights on the bridge and all the sky sightings make me so happy that not only are people doing such amazing things, but that Ty is truly still here in spirit as we knew he would be. And I absolutely love that u were greeted with all those lady bugs. They were around at my girlfriends moms funeral 2 years ago and represent so much hope and love. I also have a thing for butterflies (relating to my aunt who passed away) and always see one after or at a funeral or at a particular meaningful time in my life. They have always been special & symbolic and when I see one now I will think of Ty along with my aunt. I hope u feel the love and support I'm sending.. all of us are sending. Love and peace to you, Lou and Gavin xoxo <3
    Allison

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  130. I love how just by expresing your grief, you also give us all comfort in your signs from Ty. I have never felt such love and heartache for a family I dont personally know. Although I was at the bridge on Sunday night and also the hawks circling above for those few minutes and then disappearing over the horizon. I felt that was very strange and symbolic. I was imagining it was Ty w other children who had left because of this cancer...since it was meant to bring awareness to all of them. I was getting out of my car when I saw the hawks floating over the water and bridge and I was like wow! And when all the birds flew out of the tree during the prayer...it just felt like there was an energy there that was otherworldly. I was waiting for my sons bus, standing out by the road and thinking about Ty and all of you so strongly, truly deep in thought and sadness, when a hawk out of nowhere flew out of a tree, scooped in a big beautiful circle and disappeared just like that. One quick appearance. I live in Garrison NY (Putnam Cty) so the chance that It could be the real TLC is a strong possibility. I see hawks alot in our neck of the woods..but just how it came at that moment as I was so feeling your loss was just very unexpected and a good feeling. My 6yo and I now pray for Ty and all children w/ cancer in his nightly prayers. It always chokes me up. I will close by just saying I heard a phrase when my baby was diagnosed w a severe autism, and it has always stayed w me. Its about all the questions we have in life...when we ask God why? It goes like this "Someday we will know all about it. Someday we will understand why." God has a purpose for all of our lives, Ty was no exception. On the contrary he probly has more purpose than most. His life will and has made a huge impact on soooo many. How many people can honestly say that? May God continue to bless you and your family. Ty was sooo loved and lucky to have that kind of love. As were you to have an angel to hold. Even for a short time on Earth. You will have no fear when your time is done here...your little boy will be happily waiting for you to embrace again. <3

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  131. I was in Walgreens this morning and at check out the atm pad prompted me if I wanted to donate to the Susan G Komen Foundation. I thought-gosh-how wonderful it would be if during the month of September the donation prompt will read all around the country:
    Would you like to donate to the Ty Louis Campbell foundation?
    I will help in any way I can to promote his story and his foundation

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  132. Hello,

    Lou, Cindy & Gavin, my continued thoughts & prayers are with all of you. Ty's courageous & heartbreaking journey has inspired me to become an active voice for increased awareness of & funding for pediatric cancer.

    Ty is my hero & has been ( and will continue to be ) an inspiration for me & to many many other people.

    God Bless.

    - Rob Swan

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  133. Such beautiful tributes to an amazing little boy. My mom and I saw a little boy with a blue lollipop yesterday and instantly thought of Ty. Still praying for you all.

    Allie

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  134. Cindy
    My heart goes out to you and I wanted to let you know how sorry I am for your loss. I have followed your blog for about a year now and while I felt so many emotions reading each entry and praying that your family would find peace, your recent ladybug story was such an AH HA moment that I just needed to share! I am the mother of 5 children with a husband that travels extensively, so as you can imagine there has been very little time for me thru the years and I am embarrased to say I have not been to the Dr, had a mamogram, or even had any blood work done since my last child was born 10 years ago. Soccer games, homework, and college applications have taken over my life and I have invested very little time in taking care of myself. Thankfully I have been healthy, but since reading your blog I have had this nagging feeling that I need to put my children on hold and make some time for me. Reading each entry, I felt so drawn to Ty's courage and often thought why am I putting this off? Am I really too busy or am I just afraid they might find something in one of those tests I have been avoiding. After I read your story about the ladybugs arriving in your yard, I was so touched and promised myself that if I were to see a ladybug today, that I would drop everything and finally schedule that long overdue Dr apt. Well....guess what!! After picking my daughter up from school and racing into the house for the next run of the day, my daughter told me that I had a ladybug on the back of my coat! I couldn't believe it! I literally went from my house, to the garage, to the school (didn't get out of the car), back to the garage and into the house. How could that ladybug have landed on me? I think I know.....Ty put it there! And I am happy to say I just got off the phone and have my 1st Dr apt scheduled in 10 years!
    Thank you Ty :)

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    1. Oh! That is great. I hope it goes well. Please know that he greatest gift a parent can give amoung a mllion things at the end of the day is time!!!

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  135. Every night before I get to sleep, and even when I am especially tired (I am a medical student), Ty has me say goodnight to him and pray for your family.

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  136. I live in upstate NY near Albany and have seen such beautiful skies over the last week. I thought about Ty and your family all day on Thursday and as I walked outside, the most beautiful sun, clouds and sunbeams were in the sky. I prayed for him then as I knew he was in heaven with the angels, playing and laughing. Ty continues to be in my thoughts on a daily basis - many times a day, I have never felt such love for a little boy, a whole family really, just from reading your amazing words, Cindy. Ty will continue to show himself to you in many ways, his spirit is all around you. I will always have a special place in my heart for your beautiful boy. May God bless the Campbell family.

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  137. It's wonderful to see the heavens smiling down on the Campbell family...every rainbow, every perfect autumn day, Ty's spirit breathing blessings into each of our lives. Godspeed.

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  138. I don't have much to add to all of these beautiful posts. Just another post here offering love, light and support. One mom to another...

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  139. I can't believe it's been a week since you are gone beautiful precious baby boy. Miss you superTy.

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  140. Cindy, I keep reading your stories and I don't know how you do it. I cry every time I read and I can't belive he is gone.You sure are a strong woman and I'm sure having Lou and Gavin around helps a lot.You will never forget Ty and he will never be forgotten either... I will continue to read your posts and will follow you always!!!
    Take care and

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  141. Cindy, Thank you so much for the strength to post. I check your blog everyday and will always. You and Lou are amazing parents! I find myself looking at old posts along this continued journey. Hearing you share these most intimate moments truly warms my heart. Your family is so very loved. I pray for Ty every night as I do the rest of my family in heaven. :)

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  142. Cindy, thank you again for a lovely post. When I saw the second photo of the rainbow in a hole in the clouds, it caught my breath. Yesterday on my commute home from work on the train (I live in Brisbane, Australia), I saw that exact same formation - a truly beautiful rainbow formed in a hole in the clouds. I have never seen this before in my life and I was completely amazed. And the first thing I thought of when I saw the rainbow was Ty. I have only followed your blogs for several weeks (and have since read every single post) but your family and Ty have touched me so much. I think about you all every day.

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  143. Hi Cindy, Lou, and Sweet Gavin!!!!! Just checking in for the day. Thinking about you guys!!! Overwhelmed by sadness over Ty's passing so I cannot even imagine what you guys are feeling. Just want you to know that I think about you guys and your sweet baby, Ty, every day. I am forever changed by your family's love.

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  144. Cuz I'll march right off this world into the next like its a grand parade
    But if you feel lonely just like you want to run and hide
    Then i'll wrap my wings around you and give you strength
    And I won't leave your side
    And I'll watch over you
    Yeah, I'll watch over you
    Oh my care will cover you just like the moon'll do
    I'll watch over you
    I'll watch over you
    You know I'd love to get to heaven, you know I'd love to see the view
    But first I think I'll stay and watch over you

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  145. Cindy, when I lost my Mom to Cancer I was devestated to say the least.The day she passed away was very gloomy, moments after she passed there was a break in the clouds and a ray of light shined right through the hospital's window....I hesitate telling people this, they may think I'm crazy....at that moment I felt as though "someone" was letting me know she's ok. I felt peace. I hope you and your family are doing well.

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  146. Hi Cindy...you don't know me but I've learned a lot about you and your family from your posts. I've been so touched by your stories which I've been following since September. I loss my nephew to brain cancer on July 30th 2008. He was 5 years old like Ty. He also had a little brother Diego that was 3 at the time. The minute i heard you story my heart went out to you. I followed your posts everyday praying that your story would have a different ending. There's another angel up above.

    Now I pray for your strength. I pray that you continue to show the
    strength I've seen in you. I pray that you continue to use Ty's story to bring awareness to the need of pediatric cancer research. I pray that your mind and heart will find peace.

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  147. Thinking of Ty - sending love and support to you, Lou and Gavin. I too wish your heart and mind peace. Goodnight Campbell family.

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  148. Hi Cindy,
    I have not posted anything in awhile. I'm so sorry for your loss of your son, Ty. I can't express in words how much my heart goes out for you. I wake up before my alarm goes off to see how you and Ty are doing. I'm a school teacher in NYC was home sick w a cold last wed, I checked your blog throughout the day and I knew he had passed since we didn't hear from you and knowing about his day before. Your blog posts are just beautiful, you make my days happier by reading your blog. I'm a runner and have done two marathons one I raised money for. My goal is to run next year for pediatric cancer for Ty. I'll have gold shoe laces on. Promise.

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  149. Thinking of Ty and your family constantly. :)

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  150. Thinking of you sweet Ty

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  151. Thinking of Ty constantly..

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  152. As always thinking about TY

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  153. Thinking of Ty constantly..

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  154. Oh Cindy, I am thinking about your family constantly. I gave been for the past two years . Love you...

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  155. Cindy, I was giving my toddler a bath last night and a lady bug was just hanging out on the edge of the tub, while my son played. It made me think of Super Ty. I smiled at thought that he was visiting at bath time. I think of your little boy constantly. You and your family are always in my prayers.

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  156. Cindy, Ty is doing amazing things just like you said. He brings so many people together. I closely follow not only this beautiful blog, but also "Gold Ribbons and SuperTy Symbols" FB page. There is so much going on in your community - the support is truly wonderful.
    Ty definitely has superpowers <3
    Hanna, NY

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  157. Every day, I try extra hard for an extra smile from my son. I think of it as Ty's smile of the day. I am so sorry.

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  158. Cindy, Yesterday I found myself reading about you and your family for the first time as I stumbled on this blog quite by accident. Ty has been on my mind constantly the past 24 hours. Just a short while ago I was sitting on the floor with my 10 month old thinking about you, Ty and your family. My little girl then crawled over to her pile of stuffed animals and plucked out a stuffed lady bug that I swear to you she has never given the time of day. She brought the lady bug to me, pulled herself up and literally shoved it in my face! I kissed the lady bug and then she did the same (you know, the big open-mouthed slobbery baby kiss)!! Ty DEFINITELY has super powers. He has touched my life without having ever met him. You and your family will always be in my thoughts and prayers.

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  159. Hi Cindy. Been following your story for the past two years. The Rob Manzoni benefit that was held in Ty's name last year, I was a part of. Rob was a friend of mine, I had dated his friend for a few years actually & that is how I met Rob. Anyway, I read all the time what you write, I try so hard to not let the small stuff get in the way of my days. I cry each time I read about Ty or read what you write. So heartfelt, all of it. I have two little children that I hope to be half the mommy that you are to your two boys.
    I just sent the pajama day fundraiser form to my director at my daughters preschool. I hope to make a difference somehow in Ty's name. Your words & your strength are amazing. and your honesty is beautiful. I feel each word you write.
    Just wanted to let you know how amazing I think you are!

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  160. Ty's story is so incredibly moving, and you and your husband are truly inspirations. Losing a child is unfathomable but your endless love and dedication to Ty brings me to tears. Your grace and unwavering faith in God is incredible. Ty is in God's hands now, comfortable and at peace and always watching over you and your family. I keep Ty and your whole family in my prayers and thoughts always. His story is beautiful, moving, and will inspire many for years to come. Thank you for sharing Ty's story with all of us; he has touched more people in his 5 short years than most will in their entire lives.

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  161. I was thinking about you today Cindy, and I said to my coworker, I think Cindy deserves a good breakdown and a cry and screams, and we will all so understand. Oh my G-D i have no clue how you do this, you are amazing, Lou is amazing, and Gavin is your rock. Ty is not suffering and I think that if nothing calms you down only the thought that his pain and suffering is gone could make you go on. So sorry that he is not here, I really cant look at his picture without seeing a perfection and without shedding many tears. SuperTy you are my forever hero!

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  162. I miss hearing about your SUPERTY.

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  163. Hoping you are experiencing happy memories today and feeling Ty's loving spirit around you.

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  164. Dear Cindy,

    I have been so deeply touched by Ty and your story. I wanted to tell you that in the 2nd picture of the rainbow over the church, it looks like there is a figure of an angel going up towards the opening in the sky...

    May God bless you, and hold you all in the palm of His hand.

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  165. I have been thinking about Ty and all of you nonstop. About 5 min ago (here on Long Island- Sayville), I was thinking of him while standing outside. It is pitch black out there, except when I looked up I noticed that there are three patches of light breaking through the dark sky, forming a perfect triangle. It looks like the outline of the SuperTy logo, it really does. I tried to take a picture with the camera on my phone, but the camera just isn't capturing it. I assure you though that it is there and made me smile thinking of your little man. SuperTy forever. <3

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  166. Thanks for sharing your story about the ladybugs - I was very blue at work yesterday; I can't stop thinking of your Ty. When I looked out the window, there were hundreds of ladybugs and it lifted my spirits. I felt like it was a sign from Ty to count my many blessings.

    I know the coming months and years will be difficult, but I pray that you and your family will find peace. There will be a day when the sun shines and you can breathe again. You and your family are simply amazing - I am in awe of all of you.

    ps - I did find out that the Ty Campbell foundation is one of the charities my firm does matching donations for; I would be proud to make a contribution this year and in the years to come.

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  167. I'm so sorry for your loss. You are such an amazing and strong person. Ty was SO lucky to have you for a Mommy. Please know that your words and your beautiful son have made a difference in my life and have made me a better person and mother. For that gift, I'll be forever grateful to you and especially Super Ty.

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  168. My message to Sweet Ty

    Fly, fly little wing
    Fly beyond imagining
    The softest cloud, the whitest dove
    Upon the wind of heaven's love
    Past the planets and the stars
    Leave this lonely world of ours
    Escape the sorrow and the pain
    And fly again

    Fly, fly precious one
    Your endless journey has begun
    Take your gentle happiness
    Far too beautiful for this
    Cross over to the other shore
    There is peace forevermore
    But hold this mem'ry bittersweet
    Until we meet

    Fly, fly do not fear
    Don't waste a breath, don't shed a tear
    Your heart is pure, your soul is free
    Be on your way, don't wait for me
    Above the universe you'll climb
    On beyond the hands of time
    The moon will rise, the sun will set
    But I won't forget

    Fly, fly little wing
    Fly where only angels sing
    Fly away, the time is right
    Go now, find the light

    Celine Dion

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  169. A lady bug flew into my sunroof on our way to the bridge lighting on Sunday. Jerry gently took the ladybug and let it fly free at the next light we stopped at. The vigal was beautiful and I am so blessed to have been able to attend and remember such a brave little boy. My daughter and son drew a picture for Ty, and layla gave it to her aunt debi. She called Ty her cousin because she knows debi and rich are her aunt and uncle. I let that be her memory. I hope you get the opportunity to see the picture Cindy and Lou. Ty will forever be in our hearts. Love always, Jay

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  170. You are an amazing person. Ty's story, written in your words, has been an inspiration to my family. I am so glad you will continue blogging and working for the cause-Ty was such a strong boy who learned from such a strong mom.

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  171. I live in the Capital District and in a school district facing way too much brain tumor cancer. Here is a link to a child that passed away years ago in another town up here and LadyBugs have special meaning to the family and also are the logo for the foundation.
    Prayers for you all. http://www.catiehochfoundation.org/
    And from the district my children attend:
    http://www.tylerdemarcofoundation.org/
    http://www.maddiesmark.org/
    http://www.facebook.com/home.php#!/groups/144293152311221/?fref=ts

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  172. What about Gavin?

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  173. You are lucky you have Gavin. I'm very sorry for your loss.

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  174. My first time on this so I don't know how to post from my phone... I'm so sorry for your loss. I had lost my mom to cancer just one month before your son and being a child who had to grow up without her in my life it was especially hard to have her go. The hawk in the sky is cool and i know it was him. The evening of my mothers passing there was an angel (full detailed wings and everything) flying thru the air (as clouds do!) With this whispy small bright white cloud that was child like in front almost like it was leaping off a cliff flying. My mom was trying to show me she was ok (she passed before my flight landed) and that she was with her baby. My baby brother. We lost him when he was 8 also to cancer. I took a picture of what I seen and only myself and a few others are able to see what is so clearly what I described. Not even my older brother and sisters could see the angel and child. I am a firm believer that God gives us these signs so we don't worry and it has brought me an amazing amount of peace to know my mom is with my brother in God's arms! Praying for your family.

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