So Gray Today
Ty and Gavin, July 2010 Gold is an appropriate awareness color for childhood cancer (shiny and new and triumphant), just as gray is a fitting awareness color for brain tumors. Gray matter (get it?), but even more so, the overwhelming feeling when thinking about brain tumors is quite gray. It’s all gloom because it’s all just goddamn awful. I’m glad it’s been cloudy, cold, rainy and gray because that’s exactly how I feel on this first day of Brain Cancer Awareness month. My memories of what I witnessed leaves me with a dark, colorless range of emotions. I can’t stop thinking of all the things, large and small, that occurred during my son’s far too short time here with us. For Mother’s day when Ty was two, Lou bought me a bike with a seat on back for Ty. Ty was so excited to show me in the morning. We went for a ride on the boardwalk but he ended up crying the entire time. He hated the bumps. What I didn’t know is that he hated riding with me because it was giving him a headache. T
no news is good news! hope you are enjoying the lake! thinking and praying as always!
ReplyDeleteHave a wonderful vacation. I just want to reiterate what so many others have commented to you. Ty is so special and has so many people praying for him daily. I hope it can relieve some of the burdon for you knowing how many people care for Ty and are wishing him well and praying for him. You are an amazing mom and you should never doubt that. Most of us have never been through what you are going through and it is difficult to even fathom the extent of the pain and emotion that you are going through. You handle it with such grace and dignity and always manage to put a positive light on things. I believe that Ty is such a special little boy who can beat the odds and will continue to do so.
ReplyDeleteHave a wonderful and relaxing vacation.
Ann from Buffalo
Hi Cindy and Lou! I'm catching up on the blog and I wanted to send my love. As always I see a way for Ty's miracle and I pray u are all being guided to it. Many angels surround u at all times. Love and kisses!
ReplyDelete