I hurt myself today... to see if I still feel...
When Johnny Cash sings those palpable words, so somber and sad, he describes my day on Friday quite perfectly. I didn’t know I was doing it. I didn’t realize my trip into the city would turn into a haunting day of torture. I thought I was strong enough. I was even looking forward to it; longing for some time in the neighborhood that we used to call our home away from home. There is a piece of me that still lives there, and I miss it. When Gavin turned six in April, his pediatrician discovered a heart murmur during his annual physical. She assured me it was likely nothing to worry about and referred me to a local cardiologist. After knowing what we know, Lou and I decided to take him to a specialist at NYP-Weill Cornell, instead. My best friend’s niece, Savannah, was feeling tired and sluggish – she had a tumor growing around her heart. Ty had trouble sleeping, he had a tumor growing at the base of his skull. Maybe if the doctor’s discovered them sooner, our childr