Tuesday, December 11, 2012

Wow. He really is with me

I never post twice in one day like this, but I'll never sleep if I don't share what just happened. 

I told you that my emotions are the worst when all is quiet.  Well, tonight everyone was off to bed but me... frantically wiping kitchen counters and straightening up the house so I can exhale feeling prepared before we leave first thing tomorrow morning.  Of course, thoughts of TY consumed my mind.  I just can't stop thinking about him, especially when I'm alone.  As I was spreading the mayo on Gavin's sandwich for school tomorrow I just impulsively said "Hi Ty," outloud.  That was followed by an awkward glance up for no reason at all.  Wouldn't you know who greeted me right at that very second?  A ladybug.  On my ceiling.  AGAIN.  In the middle of winter on a freezing cold night.  I climbed a chair to get a picture and she just crawled closer to me until she was practically looking right into my eyes.  I love that ladybug.  The signs I get from Ty are so incredible.  Thank God for them.  How else would I be able to cope? Isn't it beautiful?

This is undeniable proof as far as I'm concerned
I had to run out to my car for one last thing before going to bed, and when I looked up at the sky I was slapped in the face by the brightest of all stars - right there - winking at me.  Thank you Ty.  I do believe I will sleep well tonight.  Thinking of you every second.  Loving and missing you so much, but happy that tonight you were able to tell me you are safe and you are with us.  XOXOXO.  Giant hugs and kisses to you, Ty.  Love you super huge big much. 

PS - A special tree draped in nothing but candy. This was made especially for Ty by his Nana, with a shiny blue star on top.  Thank you so much, Nana.  I look at it constantly and think about how much Ty must love it. 

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  1. Undeniable proof for me too.

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  2. Definitely Ty saying "Hi!" Awesome!

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  3. This post made me cry happy tears for you. Definitely Ty showing you he is with you every step of the way. Thinking of you all always.

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  4. wow, that is unbelievable! after reading your last post i wished there was something we all could say or do...but Ty did & knew just what to do...yet another example of why he's moved so many people and loved so much by so many people...he truly is the best good boy in the whole world!!!!!!!
    ps. the candy tree is just so sweet!

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  5. Hi Cindy! Just wondering if you have noticed the LL Bean Christmas commercial?? The little boy in it reminds me of your beautiful boy sooo much. Especially from the side. Maybe I'm crazy? Anyway, just thought I'd ask, I have to keep Googling it going "yes it does..." , "no, maybe it doesn't.." So I'll ask his momma :)

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  6. Ty wants you to enjoy your trip. You deserve it. You are an incredible person and mother.

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  7. Iam afraid of bugs, even Ladybugs! The other morning I woke up and rolled over to see that I was sleeping on a Ladybug! Lol instead of screaming ewww , I thought aww Ty. Thanks Ty im not afraid of silly bugs anymore! ;)

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  8. What an amazing beautiful soul Ty is! He wants you to enjoy your trip, and to know how much he loves you. He is always with you, he is a part of you and you will always be a part of him. That ladybug is undeniable proof, UNDENIABLE! Thank you Ty!

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  9. What a wonderful sign of Ty! I love that he always shows his presence when you need it most! He was such a precious boy and stil is! xoxo
    Joy

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  10. Tht baby will nvr leave yalls side .. for the rest of yalls life .. u will get signs from tht beautiful little angel .. whethr it be during a hurricane .. blizzard .. fire storm .. acid rain .. hes always going to give u some sort of signal to say hi mommy .. daddy && gaga .. im here ..

    Forevr && always

    Aiden ((3)), jr ((1)), && sofii

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  11. He really IS with you. He will always be with you. I have read every post Cindy, and I have been inspired to research these proof of after life signs - they call them ADC's. Ty is finding you, letting you know he is okay and of course how much he loves you. And I am beyond thankful you see him - in every sign, every feeling, every moment, every ladybug. I pray every day you will both find ways to connect.

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  12. Have a fantastic trip! TY IS EVERYWHERE for you. Big hugs!!

    Shawna
    Millbrook. NY

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  13. What a perfect sign! He is letting you know big time that all is fine! It sent a beautiful warm feeling all over me when I read this... He will always be there for you and you for him! And I absolutely love Nana's tree for Ty... It makes me want to go and make one just like it. :) God Bless you Ty! xoxoxo

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  14. He really is the best good boy!!! Still sending his smile of the day! <3

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  15. Unbeleivable. I have no doubt Ty is always with you guys and I'm glad he was able to prove it to you last night so that you can go enjoy your trip and take some time to just be you again. Thanking of you all. Safe trip.

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  16. what a wonderful post - thank you for sharing - Ty is the best good boy :) Hope you had sweet dreams and got some much needed rest. Safe trip.....

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  17. I love signs so much!! I'm so glad he gives you so many! What a sweetie he is. I love that Christmas tree too! Xoxo Rita

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  18. Awesome! Just awesome!
    Love kristi conroy- garcia

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  19. He is always with you. I love the way he shows you!! Have a good trip!

    Prayers from Nebraska~
    The Stewart Family

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  20. Never,no even for a sencond think that he is not with you! The only diference is that now you can't see him anymore,but if you try,you'll always feel ! You'll always be able to see with your heart and no with your eyes .
    Xx

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  21. He is with you. Always.

    I'm trying my best to hold back all my tears. The love you have for Ty is so powerful and incredible.

    Thinking of you and sending you thoughts of love and calm.

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  22. I know you can't wait for the day when you are together again. Until then, Ty will always be near and your Love will transcend Heaven and Earth.

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  23. Undeniable signs! Just like you tell us to believe and that you still believe- KEEP BELIEVING!I love that this happened for you and keeps happening for you. We love you Campbell's! Beautiful, precious Super Ty is so greatly missed. Also, Gaga is WAY TOO FUNNY with all of his costumes. I failed your photo challenge! I couldn't find Gaga, then I noticed his little head sticking out from behind the wall- made me laugh right out loud. What a personality that sweetie has!

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  24. Wonderful way to end a night - thank you for sharing with us!

    Jennifer, Illinois

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  25. I don't know how you feel about tattoos, but if its something you are not against, maybe you should think of getting a Ladybug tattooed on you in honor of Ty. I got a small tattoo in honor of my Dad when he passed and whenever I miss him, I just look at my wrist and know he is with me no matter what I face!

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  26. Cindy - Signs are everywhere. I truly beleive that. it might be a strange idea, but if you can find a good medium that might help. I would get a small reading with John Edward, I think Ty will jump out and say hello from the other side. God bless.

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  27. True awesomeness! I live in the area and I have not seen any ladybugs in quite some time...I love that he is able to show you he is with you always -especially when you need him most. So beautiful. ~ Brenda, Brewster, NY

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  28. All I can say is WOW. I always knew Ty would never really leave you. My heart aches for you daily. Thank you Ty for giving your mommy some peace. <3

    All my love always,
    Elaine Hinkle

    P.S. I absolutely LOVE the candy Christmas tree!!

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  29. What a beautiful post. Ty will be with you always. I believe.

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  30. WOW. I have to add one more coincidence. I am a science teacher and I was sitting in my office thinking of Ty and re-reading your earlier post from yesterday. A colleague of mine walked into the office at that moment and placed a HUGE plastic ladybug right in front of me. We have never seen this plastic toy, but it was in with the rest of our equiptment. It came out of nowhere as I was reading/sobbing at yesterdays pictures. I explained the whole ladybug phenomenon to my friend and then you saw one last night. Ty really is everywhere!!! I cannot believe how much I love Ty and how often I think of him (and your family), and I never had the good fortune to be in his presence. A true testiment to how remarkable you all are.

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  31. That is is such an awesome story.

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  32. Your post gave me chills...the good, tingly, kind. :) The kind you get when you know with every ounce of your being that something significant, something wonderful, and something meant specifically for you has just occurred.

    While it is said that "seeing is believing", I think that FEELING is believing. I am so happy that you are feeling Ty surround you with his love. He has a way with spreading his love around. :)

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  33. Yes, he is! What a lovely story! It brought a huge smile on my face... I was shedding some tears last night after I read your previous post.. I was so sad, so thank you Ty for giving us proof that are with your mommy and that you will always be with her and dad and Gavin. Lots of love, Claudia

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  34. I LOVE it! Absolute proof. It warms my heart for you to know that Ty is with you and always will be. I pray you and Lou and Gavin have a beautiful Christmas with signs of Ty around you always! God Bless you sweet Campbell Family. you are all Super :)

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  35. Cindy, Thank you so much for sharing this!! This IS proof. I have experienced things as well from love ones.. It is undeniable for sure. It is the most surreal and a cool thing to experIence. l belIeve that when your heart and mInd are open to thIngs that noone can explaIn.. well, you see things others choose not to see. TY, Thank you we all think about you all of the time! Big smiles today :)

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  36. Hi Cindy! I just wanted you to know how much i am thinking of you, Lou, and Gavin lately. I can only imagine how hard Christmas festivities must be this year. I follow your blog very closely. I swear I feel like I know you guys. I know you are always looking for signs from Ty, even though you may think some of those signs are "weird". Well, I can't post a picture right now, but I have a weird "sign" that just appeared out of nowhere. I must have told over 300 people about Ty these last few months. Your family, and Ty just touched my heart so deeply. Anyway, I was praying for you and your family the other day, and I also talked to Ty, and asked him to show up everywhere for you through the holidays. The next morning, I woke up, and I have what looks to be a big white S on my arm. I am quite tan, and it's this big white S shape right on my arm. So now, whenever anyone asks me what that is on my arm, I say I am honoring SUPERTY! Hahah. I asked the dr. when I went what he thought, and he said he's never seen anything like it. Ty can show up for you anywhere. I hope to get a pic out to you. Sending love from the Poconos.
    Love, Liz Collins
    Ps. I have family in North Salem, Brewster,Carmel, and NYC. They are all praying for you and your family too!

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  37. Simply amazing!
    Love the Candy Tree, how special :)

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  38. yes, Ty is with you all the time. My heart breaks for all of you.....I can't even imagine. I think about Ty all the time and wonder how u are going. I hope Lou and you enjoy your trip. Prayers sent your way from my family to yours. Betty Warren, Beacon, NY

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  39. Cindy he is with you forever and ever. I know you miss those beautiful eyes and soft chicks and blond curls but his ever beautiful soul is all around. What is so hard for us to grasp is the idea of the soul living forever and on,y invading body for a certain period of time to do a job and than go back to real beautiful existence. It's scary to know but I'm sure Ty soul choose his body for a reason and what calms me down is knowing that all this time Cindy Ty knew what he was doing here, and his ability to smile and see angels is just a proof of that. He was never sad he never shed a tear because he comprehended the reason and the purpose of his maybe small in years but beyond bigger exes trance here. That's why I could never study Kabbalah because meeting with souls like that and knowing wasn't meant for regular people it's something on,y for special souls, and Ty was one. How amazing this little boy is to be looking after you and sending you love signs. Cindy you raised the most amazing boy, the most caring soul, the most precious little man on the planet. You Lou and Gavin are forever blessed to have been in his presence. He wad in my eyes "G-D" who assumed his iamge and came on earth. That's why he was perfect. Thank you Cindy for creating this perfection and sharing with me. I'm forever in your debt. I miss you Ty.

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  40. I always loved ladybugs but now I will always think of Ty when I see one. I am sure he is there sending his love to you thru them. I am so glad you are open to these signs so you aren't missing them like some people do.He is with you and will be always by your side.He feels your love and sends his back to you and Lou and Gavin big much. Sweet dreams Cindy and God bless you all...Jean <3

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  41. Hi Cindy,
    Your post today makes me so happy. Thank you for sharing this. I believe in the signs... and that was clearly one on your ceiling! The candy tree is stellar. I hope that you sleep well tonight. I am always thinking of you and family... Sweet dreams.

    MN - Manhattan Beach

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  42. What a wonderful way for Ty to say "hello". His love for you is bigger than this world and your ladybug is proof of that! I am so happy for you to feel his presence and his love. The candy tree is awesome!! I hope you and Lou are having a terrific time snowboarding! I also hope you can rest and celebrate with your family this holiday season KNOWING Ty is right there with you.

    Much Love,
    Cathy from Colorado

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  43. Cindy:
    It has been a while since I responded, but, it does not mean you and your family are far from my mind and I constantly think of Ty in heaven simply laughing. One can never doubt that Ty is right there with you and soothing you. My husband asked me what I wanted for Christmas this year. Just could not control the tears as I said, no more children dying. My Christmas wish did not stop at no more pediatric cancer, I want it all. I want no more children dying. Cindy and Lou, Ty is with you every day. You continue to be blessed by him in his little signs.

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  44. Think of you guys all the time. Hope you enjoy your time away! Have a safe trip.

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  45. Of course he is with you, Cindy. He's letting you know he's there in every way he can, and I'm sure he is so proud of you for noticing. I always think of the quote, "To the world, you are one person...but to one person you are the world." You are his mommy, Cindy. His world. That hasn't changed just because he is no longer in his body. He has never left you. As always, I'm praying for you. There is not a day that goes by that I don't think of Ty and your family. My three year old son has been making more regular comments about Ty that have shocked me. One was, "That boy FLY!"

    That boy fly? Where would that come from? I know my son, and I know that is no coincidence. Its' too out of no where to be so. I believe it's because Ty is an angel.

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  46. That is the most perfect ladybug I've ever seen and I NEVER see ladybugs in winter! just awesome. Of course he is with you always...I feel like he is everywhere. I've been seeing quite a few red tailed hawks lately and the thing is, it'susually when I'm feeling low or I need it the most. Maybe I just continue to find TY in everything beautiful that I see. Enjoy this trip :) peace.

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    1. I was going to say the same thing! That Ladybug is absolutely PERFECT!!! It gave me goosebumps!!!

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  47. God works in mysterious ways.

    It's nice to read that you can find a little bit of peace and comfort, just when you think the pain is at it worst. I can't imagine how painful your days are, but I pray that Ty visits you often. I believe that he will always find a way to be with you. Wish you and your family find some joy while you go away. Love nana's tree!

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  48. Wow! A ladybug (which Italians, like me, consider good luck! in your house on a freezing December day! It is Ty! I live in Texas where the weather is mild and I never see ladybugs! I can go a whole year without seeing one. Enjoy your trip, Cindy. I can't wait to see pictures. And, speaking of pictures, thanks for the one of the "Ty doll." It is precious. I can see why you sleep with it. Love to you all.

    Laura in Texas

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  49. Thank you so much for sharing this. It brought a tear to my eye and a smile on my face.

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  50. Your blog and Ty's story have helped me get through a very difficult time in my life. I watched my mother die this morning from cancer, and the only thing that is keeping me strong is knowing that if you guys can do this after losing a child, I can do this too. With all the pain I am feeling, I cannot compare it to the pain that you feel with the loss of your SuperTy. I used to read your blog out loud to my mother to give her strength and perspective, and we both came to love Ty. Her battle ended this morning, and one of the things that I whispered in her ear was to go find Ty and tell him how much he is loved. I have faith that she is now pain free, happy, and healthy waiting for us in heaven. I just wanted to let you know how much we think of Ty and how much you have helped me during this now so sad holiday season. God bless you and yours.

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    1. I am so sorry for your loss... It is amazing just how many people Ty has helped in so many different ways to be a stronger or better person... Ty was probably waiting there to greet your mum with one of his famous smiles of the day... God bless you.

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    2. So sorry for the loss of your mother. I understand your pain, as my mother passed away several years ago, right before Thanksgiving. Definitely the most difficult time in my life. Prayers of comfort to you and your family. I hope she finds Ty, and no doubt they are both happy and pain-free!

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  51. I think you will love this video of a boy jumping in puddles while his dog patiently waits. http://m.wimp.com/playpuddle/

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  52. I am so happy to know that you are seeing all these beautiful signs of Ty!! What a blessing to experience it. Ty is truly everywhere! He really wants his mama to smile big for him! :) Love to the Campbells! You are a beautiful family...so much heart! I love it :) Ty is so amazing!

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  53. We Should All Learn Something From This Beautiful Baby Boy And Stop Sweating The Small Stuff That We Do Everyday..how we complain about stuff that Dont matter all the time ! Ty is a true Super Hero !! Love you Ty Always And Forever Baby Love <3

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